A song Dar introduced me ^^ Monday, January 11, 2010
Satisfy by Vedera
V.1. If There was a way to try and make it back Back to where we started from Could I find a way to try and make you stay I don't wanna deny my heart It's dense to feel I don't wanna deny my soul Something real
C.1. Is there anything left in ths world that would satisfy me, ohh... Is there anything thing left in this world that will satisfy you, tonight..
V.2. We were sailing on I could see the world below Never thought I've come down Expectations fail It seemed as though our will was no match for the trouble found I don't wanna deny my heart It's dense to feel I don't wanna deny my soul Something real
C.2. Is there anything left in this world that would satisy me, ohh... Is there anything left in this world that will satisfy you, tonight...
Bridge:So take me hand and I won't look back Though I've lived times along these ways I will stay...
C.3. Is there anything left in this world that would satisfy me, ohhh... Is there anything left in this world that would satisfy me, ohh... Is there anything left in this world that will satisfy you, ohhoo... Is there anything left in this world that would satisfy me, tonight...
A song that I like a long time ago & still like Sunday, December 27, 2009
Song 10 on my play list
Starcrossed
Behold this night, still and clear You look here just like an angel sleeping I wish I could ease your fears I would catch the diamond tears you're weeping In your eyes I would hide By your side I could defy The forces tearing us apart But reality, as it seems Looking back, is that our dream Was fated from the start
Girl we're star-crossed and can't escape We're condemned and can only wait At this time now it's far too late To save us from our fate
I'll remain in your hold Body, mind, heart and soul As long as I breathe Though consequence takes its toll All is out of our control That's how it will be So close your eyes my young bride Listen to me one last time There's something I have to say When your faith turns to despair Always will my love be there And never fade away
Girl we're star-crossed and can't escape We're condemned and can only wait At this time now it's far too late To save us from our fate You can't save us You can't save us
Girl we're star-crossed and can't escape We're condemned and can only wait At this time now it's far too late The poison's in our veins It's true You know that I'd die for you You know that I'd die for you (Forever True) You know that I'd die for you (I'll see you through)
*END*
No baby we aren't starcrossed.. We're destined lovers but the what the guy would do for the girl, I'll do it for you too.. Because you know I love you...
6:59 PM
X'mas love for my Love =D Friday, December 25, 2009
It's Christmas! (I love that Coca-Cola advertisment Haha)
Anyway yes it's already Christmas.. How time flies but this Christmas is special for me because I'm attached this year to my one and only and the best gf the world has to offer Ivana Wong =D I thank her for being the highlight of my life. I gladly offer myself as a Christmas present to her along with my heart which has always been hers and hers only. I hope, pray and know that with these 2 items (me & my heart) with her, she will know endless happiness and boundless joy and never-ending love in her life. Baby, no doubt this Christmas our physical beings are apart but our spiritual beings and feelings are with each other as I present to you my way of bringing Christmas to you. Locations: Twitter, MSN, Facebook, SMS & of course here. May we spend many more Christmases and festivities together & side by side with each other. I love you Ivana darling
8th & 9th song on my playlist respectively
(I've Had) The Time Of My Life
Boy: Now I've had the time of my life No I never felt like this before Yes I swear it's the truth and I owe it all to you
Girl: 'Cause I've had the time of my life and I owe it all to you
Boy: I've been waiting for so long Now I've finally found someone To stand by me
Girl: We saw the writing on the wall As we felt this magical fantasy
Both: Now with passion in our eyes There's no way we could disguise it secretly So we take each other's hand 'Cause we seem to understand the urgency
Boy: just remember
Girl: You're the one thing
Boy: I can't get enough of
Girl: So I'll tell you something
Both:This could be love because
(CHORUS) Both: I've had the time of my life No I never felt this way before Yes I swear it's the truth And I owe it all to you 'Cause I've had the time of my life And I've searched through every open door 'Til I found the truth And I owe it all to you
Girl: With my body and soul I want you more than you'll ever know
Boy: So we'll just let it go Don't be afraid to lose control
Girl: Yes I know whats on your mind When you say: "Stay with me tonight."
Boy: Just remember You're the one thing
Girl: I can't get enough of
Boy: So I'll tell you something
Both: This could be love because
(CHORUS) Both: 'Cause I had the time of my life No I've never felt this way before Yes I swear it's the truth And I owe it all to you 'Cause I've had the time of my life And I've searched through every open door Till I found the truth and I owe it all to you
*Instrumental*
Boy: Now I've had the time of my life No I never felt this way before
(Girl: Never Felt this way)
Boy: Yes I swear it's the truth and I owe it all to you
Both: 'Cause I had the time of my life And I've searched through every open door Till I've found the truth and I owe it all to you
Both: "cause I've had the time of my life No I've never felt this way before Yes I swear it's the truth And I owe it all to you
*End*
IT MIGHT BE YOU
Time, I've been passing time watching trains go by All of my life Lying on the sand watching seabirds fly Wishing there could be someone Waiting home for me
Something's telling me it might be you It's telling me it might be you All of my life
Looking back as lovers go walking past All of my life Wondering how they met and what makes it last If I found the place would I recognize the face
Something's telling me it might be you It's telling me it might be you So many quiet walks to take So many dreams to wake and there's so much love to make
I think we're gonna need some time Maybe all we need is time And it's telling me it might be you All of my life
I've been saving love songs and lullabies And there's so much more No one's ever heard before Something's telling me it might be you Yeah, it's telling me it must be you and I'm feeling it'll just be you All of my life It's you, it's you I've been waiting for all of my life Maybe it's you Maybe it's you I've been waiting for all of my life.
12:04 AM
Dedications & Photos! Saturday, December 19, 2009
I missed out some photos from my Dad's phone so here they are
(Mom, Me, Dar & Dad)
(Taken by Pavillion Security Guard)
(Me & Dar)
(Taken by Dad)
(Me & Dar)
(Taken by Dad)
(Me & Dar)
(Taken by Dad)
(Mom, Dar & Me)
(Taken by Dad)
(& I didn't notice)
And now some song dedication for my lovely baby Ivana! =D
3 of the songs here are where I got the snippets from for your book of love =)
3rd song on my playlist
"She Will Be Loved"
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goodbye
-END-
(I won't say goodbye to you baby so don't worry and rest assured =) )
The song after
"Truly Madly Deeply"
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful
'cause I'm counting on
A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning, yeah
[chorus:]
I want to stand with you on
a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me
And when the stars are shining
brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the
pleasure and the certainty
That we're surrounded by the
comfort and protection of
The highest powers
In lonely hours
The tears devour you
[chorus]
Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standing right
before you
All that you need will surely come
I'll be your dream I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
[chorus]
I want to stand with you on a
mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to live like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me
-END-
& the next song
Can't Take My Eyes Off You
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like Heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
Pardon the way that I stare.
There's nothing else to compare.
The sight of you leaves me weak.
There are no words left to speak,
But if you feel like I feel,
Please let me know that it's real.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
I love you, baby,
And if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby,
To warm a lonely night.
I love you, baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh, pretty baby,
Don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay
And let me love you, baby.
Let me love you.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like Heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
I love you, baby,
And if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby,
To warm a lonely night.
I love you, baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh, pretty baby,
Don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay..
-END-
& the next song
Can’t Give You Anything (But My Love)
If I had money I’d go out
Buy you furs, dress you like a queen
And in a chauffeured limousine
We’d look so fine
But I’m an ordinary guy
And my pockets are empty
Just an ordinary guy
But I’m yours till I die
I can’t give you anything
But my love, but my love
I can’t give you anything
But my love, but my love
I cannot promise you a world
Can’t afford any fancy things
I cannot buy you diamond rings
No string of pearls
But my devotion I will give
All my love just to you, girl
My devotion I will give
For as long as I live
I can’t give you anything
But my love, but my love
I can’t give you anything
But my love, but my love
I can’t give you anything
But my love, but my love
-END-
& the last song
"The Reason"
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You
and the reason is You [x3]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
-END-
All these songs I dedicate to you to show you my never ending love for you, my one and only gf I'll ever love in this life =) Save me in January ok? ;)
12:50 PM
Sighs, Back from KL =( Friday, December 18, 2009
I'm back from KL but I'm sad =( I'm sad because I have to leave my gf to return back to SG. Now I feel empty but I'll never forget the new memories we had, it'll be added to the memories we had previously for all memories with you are fantastic awesome memories!
This KL trip was slightly different as we stayed at a different hotel (Corus Hotel)(downgraded from 5 stars to 4 stars, but the hotel was kinda active :S) & the added bonus which delighted me so very much was to have my gf stay with us! =D
Once we arrived there we went to the nearest shopping center to look for food. Nearest was Wisma *something* to which my Dad said was a lousier quality Golden Mile Complex but the Chinese food that we had there was great. For some reason Malaysia's Wanton Mee is delicious ^^ (I crave noodles!). After satisfying our hunger we went to the next shopping center which was KLCC (Kuala Lumpur Convention Center). Malaysia shopping centers are HUGE (they just have to have four wings)! No way Singapore shopping centers can compare (save ION for it's just too big to fight). So we were walking around while I was waiting for my baby Ivana to arrive (quite a long walk & we didn't go round and round the same few places). Once she did I went to meet her and brought her back to the hotel for her to put her stuff down and freshen up. After which I gave her the gifts which I brought, bought and prepared for her. First up was the little project I was working on, A book that I made myself full of quotes of love that I researched or thought of myself (really hoped u did like it and will read it again and again when you miss me and think of me =) ). Following that was the 2 packets of Dark Chocolate that I got for her last Friday when I went to my office canteen and saw a Christmas Bazaar and I saw this stall selling chocolates and I remembered that my gf liked dark chocolate so I got her 2 packs each with different percentage of cocoa. Up next was the Razer Moray+ earpiece that I ordered for us (I gave her the newer looking one as the courier that delivered it sent it on a rainy day and somehow when comparing both casings, the one which I'm now using was full of tiny scratch marks). And finally I gave her my Grandmother's favourite Chinese Medicine which now runs in the family (great for flam, cough).
After which we went to KLCC to meet up with my parents and my mother wanted to go to Chinatown, so off we went to purchase tickets (in the form of the now obsolete Transitlink Farecards that Singapore used to have) & we went to take the train (rapidKL). And it sure does live up to it's name, the train comes every like 3 minutes except during rush hour where it comes almost every 1 minute. Sad thing is though, the train's length is about maybe 1/4 of our MRT so everyone was just packaging themselves into a small train. But crowd control was quite orderly maintained. Once we reached Chinatown it was raining so we had to buy an umbrella and while walking almost halfway thru it we decided to turn back as most of the stalls were closed. Throughout our walk I sheltered Ivana with my umbrella and my life (I get wet is nothing as long as she is dry ^^) Luckily we escaped the heavy rain.
Back at the hotel we all freshened up and went to the hotel's Japanese restaurant Komura to eat. The noodles portion was huge! The food was good, nothing I can complain about except not trying the sushi or the teppanyaki =(
Went back to the hotel and it was time to sleep. I would like to take this opportunity to apologize to my baby Ivana for she was not able to sleep due to my parent's music making. I'm sorry baby =(
2nd day wanted to eat the Chef Choi Restaurant across the street but it only open at 12pm so went to the temple beside to pray (sorry baby =( )and then take a taxi down to Chinatown (again). But at least this time it was sunny. Walked abit and decided to eat some roadside stall's food. Again I ordered Wanton Mee (same taste wor!) with a platter of Char Siew, Shao Rou, Shao Ji & I have to say the Char Siew & Shao Rou are worth eating (damn good!). Walked the whole Chinatown buying Ba Kwa, fake bags (that Indian guy sure really wanted to sell his goods) & some food stuff. Next we took a cab down to Pavillion and there, me & Ivana went to get her shoes at Cotton On. I gave her personalized service by helping her with her shoes and finally bought it for her =). Then we met up with my parents and walked around before walking back to KLCC. Ivana & me went back to the hotel to rest & my parents came back a little later as they discovered KLCC and the Twin Towers are one & the same. Dar's father called and asked her to check her result. She did so and was sad & disappointed with it. (At this moment I would like to apologize again to Ivana. I feel that I was the cause of it all. If she didn't meet me when she did, maybe I wouldn't have affected her grade so much. But still what is past has already happened. Sorry baby I know you don't blame me or hold it against me but I do and I feel bad for it. But I love you alot and that's not going to change). Dar was so tired that she slept (so did I for a while). I woke up a little later and my parents were preparing to head out but I didn't want to go as doing so would have woken up my gf as my hand was still acting as her pillow rest =)
When she did wake up the most amazing thing happened! We shared with each other our first kiss ^^ It was a long enjoyable passionate kiss full of feeling and love & it was great. The best ever! (I'd do anything to be able to relive or have another moment like that again =D ). With that we have found the answer to your question baby on "Are you a good kisser" and the answer is "You are =D ) My parents came back with KFC later (the hot n crispy isn't that hot after all, the coleslaw had onions in it =( ) Then I heard there was some instruments playing outside and it tuned out to be a few marching bands. Dar & me went down to take a look & have a listen (was surprised & happy that she know how to appreciate band music =) ) After that we went back to the hotel to refresh ourselves and then sleep.
The last day Dar had stomach upset for eating food so early in the morning, I felt so useless that I can't do anything for her =( Sorry baby. When she was feeling better I paid for her cab fare back to SS15. But before that I prepared a few SMS just for her. Hoped she liked it and had a great time. Thanks for everything Ivana. You're the best gf/wife/bride in the world and I only want all those positions to be filled up by you and only you. I'll treasure you, love you and cherish you as I had promised you earlier for the rest of my life. You're wonderful. I thank you again for the 3 days of fiery passion, excitement, love & moments of happiness, joy & love! I love you baby, for life!
I pray that I'll get to see you in January. More like I hope you will come and save me in January (haha). I got a suprise in store for you which I just told you about today so please come and claim it ok baby? I love you dearly and I so miss you very much Ivana. Can't wait to see you and be with you again =)
The Pictures (I can't smile with my teeth =.= Spoil all the pictures. SIGHS!) (Dar so photogenic =) Just want to stare at her and smile =) )
Petronas Twin Tower (Taken by Dar ^^)
(Some Indonesian Marching Band) (Taken by Dar ^^)
(Mum & Me @ KLCC) (Taken by Dar ^^)
(Dar & Me @ KLCC) (I swear my eyes was open, just that I think I just happened to blink)
(Dar & Me @ KLCC)
(Dar @ Me @ KLCC)
(Dar & Me @ KLCC) (AGAIN!? I confirm that my eyes were open! I just happened to blink!)
(Dad, Dar & Me @ Pavillion)
(Dar & Me @ Pavillion) (My most favourite picture. The backdrop blends in with us to create a couple in love effect. Grand!)
(Dar & Me @ Pavillion)
(Dar & Me @ Pavillion)
(Dar & Me @ Pavillion)
(Dar & Me @ Pavillion)
(Dar & Me @ Pavillion)
2:54 PM
Another dedication for you Wednesday, December 2, 2009
One Time by Justin Bieber (2nd song on my list)
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time One time, one time
When I met you girl my heart went knock knock Now them butterflies in my stomach won't stop stop And even though it's a struggle love is all we got And we gon' keep keep climbing to the mountain top
Your world is my world And my fight is your fight My breath is your breath And your heart
And girl you're my one love, my one heart My one life for sure Let me tell you one time (Girl, I love, girl I love you) I'ma tell you one time (Girl, I love, girl I love you)
And I'ma be your one guy You'll be my #1 girl Always making time for you I'ma tell you one time (Girl, I love, girl I love you) I'ma tell you one time (Girl, I love, girl I love you)
You look so deep, you know that it humbles me You're by my side, them troubles them not trouble me Many have called but the chosen is you Whatever you want shawty I'll give it to you
Your world is my world And my fight is your fight My breath is your breath And your heart
And girl you're my one love, my one heart My one life for sure Let me tell you one time (Girl, I love, girl I love you) I'ma tell you one time (Girl, I love, girl I love you)
And I'ma be your one guy You'll be my #1 girl Always making time for you I'ma tell you one time (Girl, I love, girl I love you) I'ma tell you one time (Girl, I love, girl I love you)
Shawty right there She's got everything I need And I'ma tell her one time Give you everything you need down to my last dime
She makes me happy I know where I'll be Right by your side 'Cause she is the one
And girl you're my one love, my one heart My one life for sure Let me tell you one time (Girl, I love, girl I love you) I'ma tell you one time (Girl, I love, girl I love you)
And I'ma be your one guy You'll be my #1 girl Always making time for you I'ma tell you one time (Girl, I love, girl I love you) I'ma tell you one time (Girl, I love, girl I love you)
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time One time, one time
4:33 PM
A dedication, tons of love and a project Monday, November 30, 2009
Well now, tomorrow marks the end of the 1st week that you went home and the beginning of the 2nd one. Now for those of you who think that I'm a heartless bf think again. Doesn't mean she does not have internet connection at Ipoh yet doesn't mean I totally forget about my dearest. On the contrary I've been sms-ing her and calling her every single day just to hear her voice, keep her occupied and be with her irregardless of how much it's going to cost me. Because I know that she's worth it all for she's the best gf any guy could ask for, the best of the best gf! As I've said before many times and I'll keep saying it again, I'll do anything and everything I can to give you the happiness that you deserve. Whatever I can I give, whenever I can give it to you, I'll do so with lots of love from me to you. i'll never need to think twice because it's something that I'm doing/getting for you. A guy to get a gf is hard, to get a gf as great and brillant as you is priceless and an impossible task for some, I'm suprised, happy and glad that I have you. I always treasure, cherish you and treat you as the someone who's very precious and dear to me because you are. So it's definitely worth everything that I've done for you and for us because you're the best!
Orite, song dedication, haven't done this for you in a long time liao so time to get it started again. What better song than this (last song of my iPod Nano Widget): "Where'd You Go?"
Where'd you go? I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone.
She said "Some days I feel like shit, Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit," I don't understand why you have to always be gone, I get along but the trips always feel so long, And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone, 'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone, But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call, But when I pick up I don't have much to say, So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up, That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin', Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career, Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone. Where'd you go? I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone, Please come back home...
You know the place where you used to live, Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs, Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile, But now, you only stop by every once and a while, Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time, With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind, I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way, You can call me if you find that you have something to say, And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up, That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin', Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career, Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone. Where'd you go? I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone, Please come back home...
I want you to know it's a little fucked up, That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin', Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses, For why you're not around, and feeling so useless, It seems one thing has been true all along, You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone, I guess I've had it with you and your career, When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...
Where'd you go? I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone. Where'd you go? I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone, Please come back home... Please come back home... Please come back home... Please come back home... Please come back home...
Anyway I've also been keeping myself busy on a little project that I decided to undertake myself. A small project to keep my gf happy always anytime everytime. Can't release any more details but stayed tuned. Deadline is in 2 weeks time. JIA YOU ME! Haha.. Miss you lots Ivana, hope when you're reading this you'll be remembering and recalling all those times we had together. We'll be together soon again! 2 weeks more! WOO!!!
Well Dar, I hope that yesterday was a blast for you and wished that you enjoyed it as much as I enjoy doing it for you. Being labeled as Shannon's Property not bad right? Got all these small little things that make it all worth it. Now who said being Shannon's Property does not have it's perks? Haha. I first would like to apologize to you for making you worried about me sleeping late last night. I just couldn't bear to leave you Dar. I had a feeling that keeps on telling me that I need to stay with you and say all the things that I need to say to you before sleeping which I finally did after I begged you to let me say a few more sentences.
Anyway you might or you might now see this but I just want to say have a safe journey back home to Ipoh Dar. I shall be waiting for you before you embark on your journey and at your point of alighting. Hope that you've saved up enough memories of us to not let you ever have a bad or boring day at home. I'll still be waiting for you missed calls everyday to being your day with a great big Shannon Love!
Take Care Dar, I'll see you in December where I'm looking forward to relive the memories in KL and to create new memories that will stay etched in our hearts forever. Every time I look at our ring I'll remember you and remember us, the love that we've shared, the time that we've spent together in KL. Those sweet wonderful memories of you and me, of us being happily in love. We've been together for 2 months 2 weeks and 2 days and I see a long and bright future ahead for the both of us together. Because a future without you is not the future that is for us. Our future has you and me inside it and we're so in love that we'll do anything and everything together! I sincerely would like to thank you for allowing this 80% good bf to be with you for all your life, best of the best gf. Rest assured I'll do everything and anything to earn back the lost 20% so that I'll be your perfect and best bf ever. Hope I'll see you very soon and that we'll have a lot of time together when you're here Ivana Dar.
Well, I hope you've enjoyed your day thus far and liked the surprise that I've prepared this morning and spending time with me this afternoon. On this positive note, let's get this party started and finish it off with a blast what do you say?
Just to let you know the method I told you this afternoon works so be sure to take in this finale as well before you leave.
I just want to say that being with you, chatting be it on msn or on the phone, sms-ing you, in other words, just spending time with you has brought me endless joy and I hope I managed to bring the same feeling if not more with love and happiness.
This is currently my life with you =)
Every single day I keep on looking at my phone in the morning just waiting to receive a familiar name calling me. The name that I'm always looking out for reads "Ivana Dar" and the moment I receive it, I either sent out an sms that I have drafted earlier or just create a brand new sms telling her how much I love her and miss her with lots of well wishes and concern.
Throughout the day I'll be waiting and hoping that she will reply my sms or just randomly sms me showing her care and concern for me as well. I have saved most of these smses so that I can re-read them as and when I wish to because most of her sms always bring to me a tear. =)
I reach home as fast as possible and power on the computer and straight away go on msn to just be with her and tell her that I'm home. Either that or I use msn on my hp to do the same thing.
Sometimes I'll go and shower and when I return I'll also sometimes give her the call of love ^^V Somehow time always passes us by when we're together because all of a sudden it's so late that it's time for me to sleep. I always try to drag as long as possible till my mother comes and grumble and I reluctantly put down the phone. I end my call saying the famed words "I love you, I miss you" and every time I say it I pray you know I mean it and feel the same way too.
I'll most of the time carry on with a good night sms to her hp as it's always never enough the time I have with her. Rarely she will sms back and when she does, boy can she make so many things fill with emotion. One if not all of these will always happen, I'll shed a tear, I'll have a smile on my face, a smile in my heart, a feeling of joy in my mind and all of these combined produce a loud yet silent cry just saying "I LOVE YOU IVANA"
Ah, only she can sway someone's who's so desperate for her with words that overload his emotions. Such is the power of our love. Such is the love I have for you. So much so that I always look forward to a new day with you carrying with me all the accumulated memories and feelings of all the previous days combined.
You, Ivana, are my one true love. A love which fire will never extinguish but only burn brighter and stronger in time. A love which is all so sweet that others may be jealous of the closeness and lovey-dovey-ness we share. A love so right that it rights all other wrongs. A love that spells out Ivana I love you forever. You and I will always be forever and in love.
Dar you're the most precious treasure that I want to protect with all that I have. No matter what is your decision, you'll always have my utmost support. I'll always stand by you giving you all the strength you need and desire. For you're my one and only dearest gf whom no other girl can ever hope to replace.
Here's a special morning edition for your happy meal dar
Which gf will wait up till late for you to get home safely? Which gf will promise you that she will not drink even when you're not there with her? Which gf will spend 2 whole days with you just for you? Which gf will talk with you all the way till you get home safely? Which gf will take care of you and think about you to the extent that you won't get in trouble with your parents? Which gf will dedicate sections of her blog post just for you? Which gf will do more that what you asked her to do? Which gf will get you something for your parents as well when you visit? Which gf is contented with so little? Which gf goes through so much effort for a personalized gift for you?
There is only one answer to all these questions That answer is the wonderful gf of mine, Ivana. She has done all the above and more.
Dar, don't you dare think for one second that all these small things that you do go unrecognized in my heart.
I'm deeply grateful, honored, fortunate & lucky to have a gf like you who does so many small little things that just make life seem so good. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I may not be the most handsome &/or the best bf around but I'll definitely be the most caring, loving, romantic, dedicated bf to you all just for you.
Because you're the best gf ever and only you deserve all the best that is to come from me.
You've given me so much and only want so little in return but being as I'm I always want to give you more because you deserve so much more for all that you've done. I can never thank you or tell you how much I appreciate all these small gestures.
Sometimes I just wonder if I'm good enough for you just as you have wondered whether you're good enough for me.
I'll answer both these questions, you're definitely good enough for me, I won't and can't ask for more because you're already the best.
You're also definitely deserving of me because I'm so dedicated to you I'll make sure only good things come your way. You're the most caring, loving gf any guy could ask for. It's just so wonderful that you are mine =)
Now you have no reason to doubt yourself or leave me because you now know that I'm always yours forever.
Our love will be extremely strong after 4 years because we're doing things with just the two of us. It'll be the best!
I'm going to give you my all for however long that I have, you can be sure of that. Our love everlasting, our happiness never-ending.
Should there ever be a time when I'm not giving you enough, which I doubt it'll ever happen, just let me know and I'll be sure to make it up to you and give you plenty more.
Week's Summary & A Special Section For You Sunday, November 22, 2009
Just got back from Jin Long's Birthday BBQ & now blogging after a shower. Something funny just happened during that shower, I almost accidentally used the facial wash to use as my toothpaste =.= Well anyway this week has got to be the week of birthdays.
Firstly there was Terence's birthday on Friday at Jazz@Southbridge. I had to go there after work and since I'll be driving there I can't and won't drink. I didn't really want to tell my gf that I was going because I know that she will be lonely and will be waiting for me to get home safely and I was so touched that she actually told her friends that she promised me that she won't drink when she went for her Prom Night. I definitely had to make the same promise to her if not it wouldn't be fair to her and I want to make her feel extra special so I told her before I left work that I'm going to promise her I won't drink anything except water and tea except when she drinks with me which I still going to keep that promise no matter what. Leonard got so drunk he couldn't walk properly, couldn't stand properly, speaking in a slightly louder voice and said hi to random people and he kept asking for more drinks. After leaving the party I straight away called my gf and we talked all the way till I reached home. I even took the stairs to continue our conversation. We chatted so much and were really really happy that it was sad I had to end it to go and take a shower. After my shower I called her again and accidentally woke her up, eager to tell her what I thought up while in the shower for her which was posted 2 post below.
Today was Jin Long's birthday, went there for a meat BBQ, I think it was almost like Carnivore except that you only get chicken as the main dish and the side dish and all other dish. Did 35% of the BBQ-ing while his gf did the rest (somehow the pit there wasn't to my liking as I had not much motivation to do it as other BBQs :S ) Same thing after my party I called my gf =)
And now for the special section for you.
Today you posted your "Last Post" on your blog dedicating a small section for me. Quoted from your blog:
For my beloved bf... As I am going back to Ipoh, I won't forget to bring the memory that we had in KL. I will still listen to the Ipod you got me, wearing the necklace that you want me to wear every day and not to take it off, reading the books that you gave me, and of course our couple ring. I love you very very much although I seldom say it to you. Maybe twice I said I love you, but in my heart, the words are saturated and concentrated. Haha, beg it will make you shed a tear...lol
Indeed it did make me shed a tear. So far every single post you had something dedicated to me, I have never failed to shed a tear, because I'm so touched, fortunate & lucky that I have a very very loving & caring gf like you =) And you're so humble that you short changed yourself on the number of times you said I love you to me, it was more that twice definitely. And I think I have influenced her because in that post she has also said, quote : Thanks Carmen for your cuteness... ... .. ... .. .. . . You must be saying my post very cheesy... Thanks to my bf...lol
Now how happy I was to see that =D
You'll be going back to Ipoh on Tuesday, I hope to give a great start to your week tomorrow so that you be going back to Ipoh with a smile in your heart =)
So for this very special section here's for you,
I know have said these words many times :
I love you I miss you I'm lucky to have you I'm fortunate to have you I'm lucky to have you love me I'm fortunate to have you love me I'm lucky to be so deeply in love with you I'm fortunate to be so deeply in love with you
But every time I said these words, I really mean what I say from the bottom of my heart. Because you, Ivana, are the greatest, best, bestest gf ever and I don't ever want to lose you. I want to spend all my life with you. Because:
I love you I miss you I'm lucky to have you I'm fortunate to have you I'm lucky to have you love me I'm fortunate to have you love me I'm lucky to be so deeply in love with you I'm fortunate to be so deeply in love with you
You say that the future is undecided, I say we create our own future. This is the future I want with you
1 year in our love life - We'll have 365 days worth of memories and love 2 years in our love life - We'll have 2(365) days worth of memories and love 3 years in our love life - We'll have 3(365) days worth of memories and love 4 years in our love life - We''ll have 4(365) days worth of memories and love that we're so close enough that your parents will approve of you going on a trip to Taiwan, just you and me.
I won't ever give you reason to leave me and neither will I want to leave you. Our love page still has a long long way to go and it'll definitely be filled with all the wonderful times and memories that we had and will have in time to come. Each day bring me closer and closer to you filling up my heart with more & more love for you. I'm so very very willing to take good care of you and look after you because that how much I love you. You mean everything to me and I can't bear to think of what it's going to be like without you. Each time that you're not with me on msn, sms or phone, I think back to the days in KL with you. Those happy days and memories, all the gifts I gave you, all the things that we did together, I'll never forget them for they are precious to me. Our first date =)
Now that you're going back, you'll have lesser time with me, but I'm never far away for you can always sms or ask me to call you and you know that I will instantly do so. The necklace, your iPod & our couple ring will come in handy for you to recall the beautiful memories that we had in KL and also keep you company when you are alone for they are also a part of me as the bear on the necklace will resemble me hugging you, the iPod's engraving Dear reminds you of me and our couple has my name in it together with yours for a circle & cycle of never-ending love.
I'll always be waiting for that sms and miss call to be with you during your time in Ipoh and I'll wait patiently for you to come to Singapore to create more memorable memories with you Dar. Do travel safely and I'll always be loving you deeply and missing you with all my heart and love. My dearest best of the best gf Ivana I love you.
(Mum & Me @ KLCC)
(Dad, Dar & Me @ Pavillion)
