Wisdom, say hello.

tell me,
have you ever wept of a broken heart,
cry 'cause you don't know where to start,
cave in when the pressure is too much,
but still hold on to a spark of hope that lights up your dark. 

tell me,
if like me, you search for truth in your dealings,
satisfaction in your actions,
courage in letting comfort go. 

tell me,
if you are wisdom, for I am seeking guidance. 

-me

Daughter to Father

Mother's Day comes and we see love in abundance. unconditional.

for some reason, on Father's Day, angst and strong words gets thrown to some fathers..
for not being there, for leaving, for screwing up, for not showing enough love, for being the bad cop, for exchanging spoken words of advise and wisdom with actions instead.
we see children making sense of their father's actions, twining words to explain how love of a father is defined, how..how..how..

Yes. I've run out of words to understand a father's love. not all fathers. most are amazing and admirable. so much that even a person unrelated would tear begging for that kind of love.

the confusion is towards just the few, who made their choices, took to their egos, called in defeat in a battle that was his to win if only he had stood up and fought harder.

sorry but a child understands simple things; love or hate. stay or leave. care or don't care.
so please, no blaming the child if he/she lacks appreciation. they were deprived of a father's love.

even so..in all the anger and frustration and confusion, I pray for your health, happiness and joy everyday.
I pray you miss your children. and I pray the children will continue to make sense of your actions and understand that deep down in that heart, you do love you children, Dear Dad.
Daddy, in all honesty you had your moments of greatness that I will cherish. you were kind, you say you love most times. you tucked us in, you brought us up, you showed and reminded us of our religion. i'll try to make you proud, i won't mess up. even if you're not looking.

from my heart, I love you. Happy Father's Day.



Dot.

less the negative

don't freak out or come fast to conclusions,
just smile and be thankful for the day;
when a boy from the office surprise you with a flower he picked out at lunch, or
a little kid comes running from afar to hug you,
a man handing you his seat in the train,
a stranger greets you with a smile and a "how'd you do?",
or even when a long lost acquaintance re-enters your life.
no they don't all do multi level marketings,
they don't all have problems for you to solve,
they're not all perverts or desperate for attention.
think of the world, sometimes, a little free of propaganda.
think of the world with a little time to smell the flowery blooms.
after all we are just humans, not coined by the term "human race".
and if here i make no sense, know that i'm not in that "race".

Dot.

oh if i could write

So come out of your cave walking on your handsAnd see the world hanging upside downYou can understand dependenceWhen you know the maker's hand

Dot.

#1 awesome

Awesome, when the damsel has her own Captain Awesome to save the day.

A lover's Q&A

If you ask me why i've never been in love with a man my whole life, my answer is this:

Because my heart was waiting for someone like you.

Dot.

Will you? Won't you?

how many times will a man propose for the hand of a woman he loves?
how many times will he take her "no" for an answer and yet doesn't give up?

how many woman would say "no" to a man's proposal, not because she doesn't love him with all her heart, but because she isn't ready?

the answer lies within (the) Bones (season 2). angela and hodgins :p

but you're free to answer at will, if you must.

I believe, "Yes" should only be the answer if the two are together and everything else takes an invincible form for the moment.

Dot.

life is awesome with captain awesome

I normally have trouble sleeping and when I do weird dreams appear.

but with his voice putting me to sleep, the unwinding sessions at the end of a dreary day..

sleep is a possibility and weird dreams become nothing but fun adventures for the night.

as An and Port puts it: less than three.




Dot.

goosebumps

the greatest compliment anyone can give another is:

you have inspired me (to do good).

i hope one day, i can inspire you. however small, i wanna know i have done something good.

----

on another note:

my hairy ladylike hands and arms are too cold to function. goose-pimples everywhere and hair raising straight from the cold. thanks a lot rain and air conditioning..you two work well together. i hear they say, cold temperature burns fat. i hope something gets burned.

DOT.

World Poetry Day 2011

so i thought of coming up with a little something-something.


written on a post-it note today:


She hasn't written in a while;
not that she can't, just she doesn't need to somehow.
String of words what used to be hushed expressions of love,
 has taken a backseat since her heart felt belonged and fed with love.
Now poetry is present in her eyes, 
'cause He has given her back her happy child-like eyes. 


Happy Poetry Day People!
feel a little lucky today and grab a post-it.


Dot.

say what you need to say

suppose I cried and said "I think I finally learned my lesson" 
And I'm tired a-spendin' all my time alone. 

If I told you that I realised you're all I ever wanted 
And it's killin' me to be so far away. 
Would you tell me that you loved me too and would we cry together? 
Or would you simply laugh at me and say, "I told you so, oh I told you so"


DOT.

humanity

Humanity, i hope it's not gone in this time of need.

stay strong world. stay strong. heart goes out to those in need. where are the tabung bantuan?? where??

let the volunteers help. don't stop them. humanity needs all the hands they can have.

disaster will strike worse. remember the people you love. love the people you love. don't wait till it's too late.

make peace. talk less, listen more. the world is crying.

----

before we start revolting against structured power, think.
revolt and chaos could only be a plan to break the chain. power to the people is great. but power to people without a strong leader, could only lead to greater chaos. when chaos erupts, guess who will be coming in wearing the 'International Police' cap. you got that right.

act smart.

don't blame me when i'm not there

i'd be lying if i said i don't ask for anything in return.
all i ask for is a little honesty and commitment in friendship.

if that's too much to ask, i'm sorry..but i won't budge.

DOT.

what if she's not all she's made out to be. what you thought she would be.

was i ever a "Hey Lady"? they did give up on me.

i hope i won't be a disappointment when the time comes for real.



Dot.

kalau saya senyum awak mesti senyum sekali

awesome day at the falls. jadi kita senyum. thank you for Chamang Falls.

PHOTOS ARE AMAZING!! credits to FIZRI SAID.

just wanna make the world dance, forget about the price tag

only time i danced to a tune this week was last night before sleep in the room. that's about it :o

should forget about the money making, money money~

just need to dance. she will be dancing tomorrow :)



do what makes you happy <3

Dot.

privileged

less we forget how grateful we should be as Muslims to be a believer.

born into Islam, brought into Islam, belief in Islam.

don't we ever forget the beauty of Islam in our pursuit of right and wrong, in our struggles for justice.

Islam is here, there, everywhere..

simple and pure..waiting for us to listen and take it all in.

this Maulid-ur-Rasul, let us remember teachings of the Prophet s.a.w.

let us remind and be reminded of the privilege given and seize it.

Peace Be Upon You, Ya Rasulullah.





Dot.

I'm in Love with Love.

i take no issue with love.

be it expressing once a year, buy a card, some candies, flowers, dinner,

or every single day, every single moment together, every breath you take, each time your heart beats.

love your family, love your lover, love you friends, love those in need of love.

love needs work. and a day recognizing love, is worth celebrating.

love is not a sin when it's pure.

Happy V-Day my lovelies.



Dot.

dropping some loose change

you know what the human race has become? we have become a race so caught up in being too politically correct to the point that nothing is RIGHT or WRONG anymore. it just has to be CORRECT.

i mean, weren't we given a choice from day one? a left and right brain? two hands? two feet? choice of two roads?
pick one! don't be a sissy and bull crap on equality this, equality that, when more than half of the population don't even understand the meaning behind 'equality' or whether 'equality' and 'similar' are two of the same or very much different in meaning.

let it go!
don't try to remake Annie starring Willow Smith. make another movie. Fresh Prince of Bel Air was original.
oh and FYI, having an opinion does not make a person homophobic. afraid to accept an opinion makes one phobic.

DOT.

Session #1

the heart wants what it wants.

i) little butterflies
ii)heart palpitations
iii)free time means thinking of nothing else but little butterflies and heart palpitations

if you can't stop smiling and have all the mentioned symptoms..you are a goner.

give the heart what it wants.

DOT.

of midnight blue and silver linings

a song for 2 lovebirds..
happy to see others happy.
i hope you two bloom in happiness together.




DOT.

in transit

Mom said what I'm doing now; letting the evil corporate world eat up myself, is just a pit stop to a greater destination in the future.

she was in transit for a good 30 years.

i dream of fireworks

like a dream, picking up your call,
like a dream, you walking right at me,
like a dream, you carried me like a dainty daisy,
like a dream, i laughed and i smiled,
like a dream it felt perfect,
like a dream you're perfect..to me.

you are a dream.


DOT.

there's beauty in your loss, you just need to realize that it surrounds you

you, me, him, her..
we all deserve that second chance but who's to say we'd live to see the day that second chance comes knocking on the door.
what if you had your second chance but you were too blind to see.
you should have chased the one you love.
you should have said what was in your heart.
you should have loved the first time like it would be your only time and last.

hurt if you've lost. but don't destroy others' chance at happiness because you needed your second chance. be happy you've realised you have loved.

this one's for you.

girl in the green scarf emerging.

it's crazy when all i can think of is to shop. oh i'm going to go on a shopping spree!

and i don't do that often. yes, i'm a girl. i just don't shop as much. but when i do, i have to splurge. i have goosebumps just thinking of the spending i'll be doing.

DOT.

my mama said there'll be days like these

on a scale from 1 to over trusting.. i am pretty f**ing naive



you should meet my mum.

DOT.

the unsaid

You speak of love, but you ain't no lover
You were a friend, more like a brother


DOT.

hari kurang sempurna

but sometimes we forget what we got, who we are, who we are not..
got a chance if we keep it loose and keep it tight.

• i finished a due diligence report in a day flat, which normally takes at least a week to finish. done, reviewed and sent across. woot!
• i have a boss willing to teach. even willing to sit and teach the art of drafting and saving paper. i think he should speak at the KL Bar talk on how lawyers can save the environment.
• i tried listening and being there for a friend today as much as i could, as busy as i was today. sorry if i couldn't spare more time. i would if i could.
• i realized today that even though you don't tell people things about yourself, if they care, they will find out. you noticed and it was enough to make me feel happy today. thank you. i guess i can call you a friend.
• i have a home to go home to.

i'm thankful.

keeping it loose keeping it tight..

remembering who i am not.

DOT.

comic relief at the job

an eligible bachelor came to the office.
an IR to boot.
secretaries went all gugu gaga.
queries of the name, the age, the blood type..
I got a call asking if everything was under control.
sure, everything is under control except for a few hearts that went aflutter.
women are cute when they gush.


Dot.

choice

who/what do you think of when you listen to a song?

i think about the what ifs most of the time.

but with this song, i can only think of walking down that aisle one day..when it comes.

i just can't pick which i like better.

english version is so sweet. malay version is soo meaningful.

i'm almost going for the malay one. i just can't yet decide..oh but i have time :)

enjoy.





DOT...

going for the Malay version..maybe..

DOT. DOT.