Showing posts with label writer. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writer. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

August is Awesome Because of Kyra Lennon


Now just how awesome does one have to be to have two covers for their debut novel?  You have to be at least as awesome as Kyra!  

Give Kyra a great big Strands of Pattern welcome!  

Game On, Kyra!


When I first realized I wanted to be a writer, I wanted what every writer wants in the beginning. A contract with a top publisher, and to see my books in the shops amongst the books of the writers I admire. I can’t say I’ve given up on that dream, but what I can say is that self-publishing seemed like the right choice for me at this time. Here’s why.

I’m impatient. When I was naïve about how the publishing industry works, I thought it was fairly simple and quick. Once someone snapped up your book, it’ll be published within a few months, right? Ha ha, how stupid of me! The reality is, it takes a lot, lot longer than that and my first novel, Game On, had already been sitting around in my laptop for six years! I figured, why leave it any longer when I can just as easily do it myself, right now?

Kyra Lennon is Awesome!
Another reason for choosing to self-publish was keeping control of the story and everything that goes with it. I talked to a lot of self-published authors, and several traditionally published authors, and most of them agreed that giving up some of the control was something they didn’t really like. We’re not talking petty fights over small edits, but being asked to change bigger parts of the story, and having no say over cover design. Those are just a couple of examples. I weighed up all the options in my mind, and decided that because this story means so much to me, I wasn’t entirely willing to compromise on the way it plays out.

Finally, I was tired of being asked, “Oh, you’re a writer? Do you have anything published?” I don’t usually bow to pressure, but I wasn’t keen on the pitying looks when I told people I didn’t have a book out yet. Book or not, a writer is what I am, but to people who don’t understand, I was basically just “unemployed” and “messing around on the internet all day, “ neither of which is true at all. So, I caved. It was in no way the biggest factor in my decision, but I can’t deny, it did have a small part to play.

Game On Book Cover
Kyra's Debut Novel (Cover #1)
I am pretty sure that at some point in the future, I’ll dip my toe in the querying waters, because I don’t think I’ll feel like a real writer until I get my first rejection letter! But for now, self-publishing is definitely the right choice for me.

Visit Kyra at her blog Write Here Write Now and...

Get your copy of "Game On" at:
Amazon Kindle version

Amazon.com Paperback

Amazon UK Kindle version

Amazon UK Paperback

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Kyra's Debut Novel (Cover #2)
Game On Synopsis

After swapping her small town life to work for one of the top soccer teams in the U.S, Leah Walker thought she could finally leave the ghosts of her past behind. However, when she meets serial womanizer, Radleigh McCoy, the memories of her old life come swarming back, and she is forced to ask herself whether she has really changed at all.




Yeah, I know Kyra likes the original cover, but I've got to admit...  Those are some nice legs!!  {:-D

Saturday, August 11, 2012

August is Awesome Because of Al Diaz

I met Al via the Yahoo Fantasy Writing group.  We've exchanged critiques and ideas on our works in process, offering each other suggestions, encouragement and more than a few laughs. 

Al is one awesome dragon, writing a novel in English even though Spanish is Al's native (and primary) tongue!  And I thought the struggles that I, a born-and-raised American, endured writing a novel in English were tough!

A lot of talent and creativity resides within Al, so give this awesome dragon an awesome welcome!


"Ken Lee"

by

Al Diaz


The lyrics to this song may ring a bell for all those lovers of YouTube. If you’re not familiar with it, you just need to type the name and you’ll be able to enjoy this piece of creativity. Anyway, the singer presumes Ken Lee is English.  Well, this is Ken Lee’s English with its reference in the “other” English. (Bummer, how many English are there in this world?)


Lyrics as Sang (True English Lyrics)
No one ken to ken to sivmen (No, I can’t forget this evening)
Nor yon clees toju maliveeh (Or your face as you were leaving)
When I gez aju zavateh na nalechoo more (When I had you there but then I let you go)
New yonooz tonight molinigh (You always smile but in your eyes)
Yon sorrah shoo, yes, ee shoo (Your sorrow shows, yes it shows)
Ken Lee (Can’t live)
Tulibu dibu douchoo (If living is without you)
Ken Lee (Can’t live)
Ken lee meju more (I can’t give any more)


As much as this song has made me laugh real hard, I must confess in my youth I used to sing my “Ken Lee” versions of my favorite songs. I could nearly bet my left shoe that all those for whom English is not our mother language have started with “Ken Lee” singing attempts.

Billy Joel’s “We didn’t start the fire” for example.  Our “Ken Lee” version was;
“Harrison and drum spring. Make Shon and Jhonny away. Sun besin the pot and wishes. Shon Jumanji Oh.”

Corresponding to the “other” English version of:
“Harry Truman, Doris Day, Red China, Johnnie Ray. South Pacific, Walter Winchell, Joe DiMaggio.”

Yes, you can laugh at us too. My mother language is Spanish. Back in my youth I wished I could understand at least half of what my favorite songs said, though. I learned English along with my career. By the end I could manage a simple conversation and I could write a business letter in English, from Dear Sirs to Yours Very Truly.  However, if this conversation went any bit deeper than the status of your order, messages and directions, I could be in deep trouble. God forbids if I’ve got to talk with an actual English speaking person. I could well speak Apache then, or my fingers suddenly became clumsy. After cutting the communication “by accident”, I would hide under my desk with a Mr. Bean kind of expression and hope no one would have noticed that.

It was more than evident English and I didn’t get along well. It was ok by me. Who needs English anyway when all good movies have subtitles and Internet was a only a subject good for Sci-Fi? But fates  had other plans and for circumstances out of my control I couldn’t find a job related to my career. I had English, though. Somebody suggested I should offer translation services. (But of course! Why didn’t I think about it before?)

Only those who work in the translation business can tell that knowing a language and translating to that language and back to your own are not necessarily related.  Actually they are not. I have found wonderful English teachers that really suck at translation and excellent translators that cannot remember one single grammar rule under penalty of death. But hey! I was not nearly an English teacher, so I felt safe enough to try in the translation business. Now that was not a proof of my common sense but sure as hell I proved some chutzpah. I still don’t know how it was that I managed to survive in the translation world without someone to just kick my butt out.  A reason could be that those who were up to try it would have to first find me under piles and piles of dictionaries. Engineering, medical, legal and business dictionaries shaped my fortress. I learned translation along the road out of a need to earn my living and thus the need to make people believe I knew what I was doing, (or in this case, speaking.) I came to be pretty good at it after a couple of years but it needed time and hard work.

I have always loved to write stories. I wrote them in Spanish of course. One day it occurred to me I should write stories in English to further improve my knowledge of the language. Now if I could translate how a scrapper for offshore oil byproduct pipelines worked, or better, translate a whole lawsuit from Spanish to English, writing a story was like child’s play. (Yeah, keep dreaming.)

It was quite a shock to feel I didn’t know any English at all….yet again.  I didn’t know words as common as sigh, scoop, grin, smirk, hut. (Can you hear it? The curse to deaf  Heaven?) Yes. "How many times will I have to learn English, for crying out loud?"

I was overwhelmed by this sense of déjà vu and this time I could not shrug it off. Who needs English? Well, just surf the Internet and you’ll find who needs English. If I wanted more people to be able to read my stories, I had to learn that sort of English. I’m still learning, but I can tell you it has come to be very gratifying. I am proud of my efforts and my level of English. I have not mastered it yet, but it’s way above the “Ken Lee” English with which I started several years ago. The best part is that it didn’t cost me nearly the amounts of money one may guess. My English boost came 99% from writing stories and role playing with English speaking fellows that have become also dearest friends.

This doesn’t mean I’ve given up on “Ken Lee”. Now I sing “Ken Lee” versions of Japanese, Indian, Portuguese and Italian songs. “Ken Lee” is still fun for me but now I know one thing for sure. Learning another language is not matter of money. It’s matter of determination, time and effort.


Al Diaz is awesome!
About Al Diaz

I work as an English-Spanish translator. I also write small articles for a monthly magazine for Risaterapia, an organization of hospital clown volunteers. I have an harem of muses and when I am not writing, I am painting, sculpting with clay or papier mache, doing 3D origami, making puppets (and muppets) training dogs, creating vegetarian recipes for people with gastrointestinal disorders, dancing, practicing PNL or reading about all the above.

Al blogs at Imaginar es crear
Connect with Al on Twitter too: https://twitter.com/CodigoNoble

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

August is Awesome Because of Angela Ackerman

Now you must be careful around this awesome woman.  She can read you like a book.  In fact, if she's watching you closely then you--or at least what you're doing--might end up in her next one.

Her Emotion Thesaurus (and blog) is an invaluable tool for writers who want to show a character's emotion rather than simply name it for the reader.  And really, anyone who strives to help you improve your craft is awesome, right?

Please give Angela Ackerman an awesome welcome! 


Hidden Emotion: Telling What Characters Don’t Want To Show

One of the struggles that comes with writing is when a character feels  vulnerable  and so tries to hide their emotions as a result.  Fear of emotional pain, a lack of trust in others, instinct, or protecting a reputation are all reasons they might repress what’s going on inside them. After all, people do this in real life, and so it makes sense that our characters will too.  Protecting oneself from feeling exposed is as normal as it gets.

But where does that leave writers who STILL have to show these hidden emotions to the reader (and possibly other characters in the scene)?

The answer is a TELL-- a subtle, bodily response that the character has little or no control over.

No matter how hard we try, our bodies are emotional mirrors, and can give our true feelings away.  We can force hands to unknot, fake nonchalance, smile when we don’t mean it and lie as needed. However, to the trained eye, Tells will leak through: a rushed voice. An off-pitch laugh. Hands that fiddle and smooth.  Self touching gestures to comfort.  Sweating.

For a story to have emotional range, our characters will naturally hide what they feel at some point, and when they do, the writer must be ready. Readers will be primed for an emotional response by the scene’s build up, and will be on the lookout for a character’s body language cues and tells.

Here is a list of possible TELLS which convey that more is going on than it seems:
  • A voice that breaks, drops or raises in pitch; a change in speech patterns
  • Micro hesitations (delayed speech, throat clearing, slow reaction time) showing a lack of commitment
  • A forced smile, laugh or verbally agreeing/disagreeing in a way that does not seem genuine
  • Cancelling gestures (smiling but stepping back; saying No but reaching out, etc.)
  • Hands that fiddle with items, clothing and jewellery
  • Stiff posture and movements; remaining TOO still and composed
  • Rushing (the flight instinct kicking in) or making excuses to leave or avoid a situation
  • A lack of eye contact; purposefully ignoring someone or something
  • Closed body posture (body shielding, arms crossing chest, using the hair to hide the face, etc.)
  • Sweating or trembling, a tautness in the muscles or jaw line
  • Smaller gestures of the emotion ‘leaking out’ (see The Emotion Thesaurus for ideas that match each emotion)
  • Growing inanimate and contributing less to conversation
  • Verbal responses that seem to have double meanings; sarcasm
  • Attempting to intimidate others into dropping a subject
    Overreacting  to something said or done in jest
  • Increasing one’s personal space ( withdrawing from a group, sitting alone, etc.)
  • Tightness around the eyes or mouth (belying the strain of keeping emotion under wraps)
  • Hiding one’s hands in some way
Sometimes a writer can let the character’s true thoughts leak out and this can help  show the reader what’s really being felt. But this only works if the character happens to be the Point Of View Character. The rest of the time, it comes down to micro body language and bodily tells that are hard if not impossible to control.

Have you used any of these tells to show the reader or other characters in the scene that something is wrong? What tells do you notice most in real life as you read the body language of those around you? (These real life interactions can be gold mines for fresh body language cues to apply to your characters!)


About Angela Ackerman:

Angela Ackerman is awesome!
Angela Ackerman is a Canadian who writes on the darker side of Middle Grade and Young Adult. A strong believer in writers helping writers, she blogs at the award winning resource, The Bookshelf Muse and is co-author of The Emotion Thesaurus: A Writer’s Guide to Character Expression. Angela is represented by Jill Corcoran of The Herman Agency.


The Emotion Thesaurus: A Writer’s Guide to Character Expression is a writer’s best friend, helping to navigate the challenging terrain of showing character emotion. This brainstorming tool explores seventy-five emotions and provides a large selection of body language, internal sensations, actions and thoughts associated with each. Written in an easy-to-navigate list format, readers can draw inspiration from character cues that range in intensity to match any emotional moment.

Friday, August 3, 2012

August is Awesome Because of Diane Fordham!

I love awesome people because they're, well, awesome!  And I love it when awesome things happen to awesome people.  Diane recently received an email notification stating that she had sold not one, but THREE short stories!  Only awesome people sell short stories three at a time.  

Please welcome Diane Fordham!  She's an awesome Australian and an awesome individual! 


THE STORY TELLER
BY
DIANE FORDHAM

The story teller’s goal is to write something which has some impact or reaction on the reader. Don’t day dream about drafting this story you are going to write – JUST DO IT!

Whether I choose to write a story then find a market or write for a particular market there is a process I go through.

A word becomes a sentence becomes a paragraph becomes a page becomes a story.

Diane Fordham is Awesome!
It is important to accommodate your muse. Whether your words come out one at a time or flow like a fountain, write them down. As ideal as it would be for your story to come to you in order from word one to word one hundred thousand, it doesn’t work that way. Once you know the basics of your story, write it all down as it comes. The order of your story can be worked out later. This stage is about collating your information. You are creating your jigsaw puzzle; you will put it all together later. Trust the process of your writing.

If a question pops up during your writing process write it down and get back to it later. The answer may present itself while you’re scribbling/typing your ideas. For example you have written an amazing descriptive paragraph uncovering something shocking and you ask yourself; But who would have done such a thing and why? That answer doesn’t need to be known now. Keep on putting those words down. Your muse might bombard you with information relating to something that might happen three scenes or several chapters into your story, go there and write it down. You will get to the sequence of events and fill in the missing pieces later in your drafting process. At this stage your story may seem like a fragment of ideas with many loose ends which are going nowhere, but it will surprise you as the more you write the more your creative juices kick in and take shape. The positive thing here is that you have something to work with. Your project is taking shape. More ideas to complete those missing pieces will come to you as the world around you inspires you. Trust in yourself and trust in your creative process.

Once you have filled in those missing parts and collated your scenes into sequential events, sit back and be proud of yourself as you have just created the first draft of a good story. Now it is time to turn that good story into a great story by reworking, editing and polishing it until it shines.

Keep writing….

Visit Diane at her blog and website.

And definitely grab a copy of Dream Keeper!

At Amazon.com

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Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Awesome People

Over time, a blog takes on a personality.  That personality is usually an aspect or extension of the blogger's personality.  The personality may not be easily pegged or defined, but it's there none-the-less, just as unique as its author.

And because each blog is unique it offers its readers something no other blog can offer: a glimpse into the heart, mind and soul of its author.  And what I've found is that behind every awesome blog is an even more awesome individual.

So I've set myself on a mission.

I'm huntin' awesome people! 

But some of you awesome people like hiding, being elusive and playing hard to find.  You want me to work, dig, crawl, climb and wedge myself into the various nooks and crannies of cyberspace in order to catch you.

But catch you I will.

I'll catch you because your awesomeness demands that you be caught.  It begs to be paraded for all to see.  And I intend to put it on display next month.

I'm planning an Awesome August by introducing awesome people to other awesome people.  I've already caught some of you, but not all.  And if I don't catch you, it won't be for a lack of my upper middle-aged legs trying.

So, be vewy, vewy quiet.  I'm huntin' awesome people!


Thursday, June 14, 2012

Curse of the Time-Starved Writer

Hideous.  Oppressive.  A curse worse than most.  A curse inflicted upon the creative souls who love to write.  And I have it.  My guess is you've experienced it too.

The curse?  Life.  Or rather those things that life brings to derail the progress we writers crave.

It's worse than our muses taking a month-long vacation in the tropics while we sit at our desks devoid of the creative sparks that propel our fingers into a furious frenzy of typing.

It's worse than spending weeks polishing dry prose into vibrant excitement while our still unwritten tales slip deeper into the recesses of our minds, waiting.

It's worse than air-starved lungs attempting to breathe fresh, unique life into cardboard characters that stubbornly refuse to be defined by their creators.

It's a nasty little curse, for sure.  And those of us not named J. K. Rowling or Stephen King must endure it.  There are no charms to protect us from it, no voodoo timepieces into which we can poke needles, no incantations we can utter that will dispel it, and no silver bullets with which we can terminate it.  It envelopes us like the very air we breathe. 


It's the lawn that needs mowing, the empty cupboards and refrigerator that needs filling, kids that need a ride to soccer practice, and the office from 9-5 with nights and weekends on call.  Relatives and obligations, unplanned errands and unexpected guests, they're all part of the curse.  It strikes without warning.  It strikes without mercy.

Never enough time.  Squeeze a minute as hard as you can and you'll wring not another single second from it.  Whether time is relative or absolute doesn't matter.  Sixty minutes is all you're going to get from an hour.  There is no more. 

I've heard some say that if you want time, make time.  Alas, my talent for making time ranks right up there with my talent for growing younger.  Oh, what I wouldn't give for a time machine.  Drop in a few quarters, pull a lever and out pops an hour.  That would be better than chocolate!

But alas, we can't make time.  We can't buy it either.  We can only use wisely the time we're given.  That, and nothing else, offsets the power of the time-starved writer's curse.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

It Happened...

At work, standing in the cafeteria lunch line, it happened.  A server left his station, walked to the serving station in which line I was waiting and asked, "Are you the one writing the book?"

I nearly fell in the floor!  I made him repeat the question, certain I'd misunderstood it.  "Are you the one writing the book?" he asked again.

Hiding my grin was impossible.  "Yes.  How did you know?"

"Jenn told me."

Jenn is a coworker of mine in another department.  I'd let her read my prologue the previous week.  She told me she liked it, but you know how that goes.  All your friends like what you wrote when they're talking with you about it.  Perhaps she really did.  Or perhaps she was just impressed that I had actually completed my draft.  In any event, it made me feel like a...ahem...writer.

And it felt good!

I don't even need to tell you what the next question was, right?  Anyone who has finished a book (even the first draft) knows the next question.  "What's it about?"

So there it was.  The question I've pondered answering for months.  I've wondered what I'd say, how badly I would answer and whether I'd leave them shaking their heads acting like they understood what I was telling them.

"Well, it's an epic fantasy."  Quickly, I moved to dispel the blank look already forming.  "It's kind of like Lord of the Rings."  Whew.  The nod of comprehension.  I don't need approval, but understanding is crucial.  This way, they can walk away with an inner giggle muttering, "Ha!  The guy thinks he's Tolkien."  That much is acceptable.

So, what makes it even better?  The other server joining the conversation and asking, "Is it like Eragon?"

"A little," I answered.  "It's got dragons."

"I loved Eragon," he told me with a smile.  "When you get it published I'll have to buy a copy."

Then it was my turn to smile.  Yes, folks, it felt mighty good indeed.


Do you have similar stories you'd care to share?

Thursday, May 3, 2012

New Ground

I broke a lot of new ground in April.  I came out of the closet and called myself a writer!  Of course, I qualified it with amateur, but I publicly declared that I write and intend to do something with it.  It's a profession of faith, a commitment, new ground.

No longer shall I write in the closet.  I'll write out in the open and not be ashamed.  No longer will I be Jeff, the guy who writes.  From this moment forward, I shall stand with my back straight, look people in the eye and say, "Hello, my name is Jeff, and I'm a writer."

And I've taken the first step by submitting my "Cathryn's Bay" short story to the L. Ron Hubbard Writers of the Future competition.  Big step for me.  Definitely new ground.  But I figured, hey, why not?  It's just sitting around gathering pixel dust.  And that's what writers do.  They submit their writing.  To competitions, magazines, agents, editors.  They write.  And writers write to be read.

I'm also working on a short story called "Barnabas" that I plan to submit for a magic stories anthology.  I've been working on it for the past couple weeks.  I've never submitted anything for publication before.  So this too is new ground. 

And I'm even considering writing another short story to submit to John Hartness' Big Bad Anthology.  I have a few ideas, but haven't fleshed out the plot for that one yet.  It's worth a look if you're interested.

Of course, I also broke new ground in April by completing my very first book, The Bonding.  A few fine folks have offered to alpha read it for me.  I'm giddy with anticipation.  It's kind of like sending your newborn off to see a pediatrician and waiting for the prognosis.

I completed my first full-novel critique for another writer this month and am in the midst of a second one.  I work hard at giving critiques and feedback.  I take it seriously because the people who wrote the books take it seriously.  Fair is fair.

And I made a commitment.  A scary commitment.  Don't ask me why.  I'm a guy.  I'm supposed to be afraid of commitment.  Several members of the Yahoo Fantasy Writing Group are doing their own little private May NaNoWriMo challenge.  You know the deal, right?  50,000 (new and original) words written toward a novel within a month.  I agreed to participate.  My internal editor works overtime.  I want to learn how to send him on vacation while I draft.  This should help.  Again, new ground.

Wish me luck.  New ground is often soft.  I don't want to get stuck or sink or become mired in this new ground.  I want to cultivate it, fertilize it, and watch things grow from it.

So, are you that person who writes?  Or are you a writer?

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

I Can't Believe I Birthed the Whole Thing

I expected to experience many things once I had truly completed my first draft.  But for some unknown reason I never really considered what is probably the most logical experience of them all... Exhaustion!

It's perfectly, totally logical to me now.  duh! Perhaps there were other factors at play.  It was a typing extravaganza that didn't finish until 4am.  I babysat two of my grandsons (aka Tasmanian Devil and Speedy Gonzales) the evening before and the day following.  And I awoke Sunday morning and realized that I hadn't eaten (yet again) all day Saturday.  I must remember to eat!

Of course, I experienced many other things as well: the thrill of completion, the disbelief that all those months of pounding keys (most notably "Delete" and "Backspace") had paid off, and an immense sense of accomplishment.  I fully expected to be walking on cloud nine for no less than a week!  And I am feeling like a zombie who can't even dance Michael Jackson's Thriller.

 

I am both pumped and pooped, psyched and spent, elated and exhausted.  Is this normal?  Was this to be expected?  Why did no one warn me of this?

And what frightens me most is that I have a good feeling of what's coming next: the roller coaster of doubt and insecurity.  The nagging notion that this would have been a really great story if someone who knew what they were doing had told it instead.  The fear that the writing is good but the story's a total dud.  Horror at realizing that what agents and publishers request are the three worst chapters I have.  And of seeing the word "AMATEUR" rubber stamped in red ink across the face of the front page.

I keep thinking, Is this a writer's version of postpartum blues?  Well, I'm a guy; my wife did all the hard work in that regard, but I do feel like I just gave birth to my firstborn.  (And a whopper at that!)

Maybe all that is normal too.  I know I can write, but did I write this draft well?  I know I can tell a story, but did I tell this story well?  Am I writing this post while exhausted?  You betcha.  It was necessary.  I wanted to capture the full gambit of emotions.  And it's a little therapeutic as well, I think.  The best cure for a self-doubting writer is to write, right?  So...

Hello.  My name is Jeff.  And I'm an amateur writer.

It's okay.  I'm comfortable with that for now.  All professionals began as amateurs.  Could I have written the story better?  Sure.  As much as I strive for perfection I fully realize that perfection is an unattainable goal.  Is the book too long?  Maybe not for an established author, but it is for an unknown who is seeking publication. Will I learn as a result of having written this?  Undoubtedly.  Have I already learned by writing this?  Oh yes, loads of stuff. 

So, I guess that makes me a successful amateur.  An exhausted amateur, but a successful one.  I'll strap in for the roller coaster ride, but I'm happy to finally be able to climb aboard.  I'm happy to have completed the draft.  I'm eager to begin the revisions and edits.  And I'm happily plotting my next book.


This amateur has a newly found respect for those who have accomplished the feat of completing a novel.  And a newly found confidence that you--yes you--can do it too!

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Cathryn's Bay


Richard Daniels stared out the window and watched the girl die. 
 
He felt neither fear nor disgust as the bearded attacker shook her free of his impaling blade. His eyes revealed no horror as they watched the assailant strip everything of value from her. His heart never leapt. He never gasped. He knew and accepted the fact that death’s prey was often young. He never even heard her scream, not that it would have mattered. He was focused more on the bay. There should be more boats, he thought, with taller sails and brighter colors. The gruesome murder needed better contrast. He considered the matter further. She was a nameless girl slain by a nameless man for nothing more than the rings on her fingers and the chain about her neck. That was how it was in this part of town. Nameless faces, nameless streets, but the bay…the bay was called Cathryn’s.

Odd that his mind tarried on the girl, he thought. There were other things that demanded his attention, things far more important than nameless faces. But he couldn’t help it. How ironic it would be if her name, like the bay, had been Cathryn. Again, he decided it didn’t matter. The girl wasn’t important. The attacker wasn’t important. They were merely diversions, welcome reminders of life on this side of the bay. They distracted him from pondering the bay and what lay past its northern shore. Woe to any man who places his last dream in the hands of a woman. Yet he had done just that and was beyond regret. She would be his salvation. He would make sure of it. He couldn’t bear the thought of eliminating her. He had eliminated far too many already. Another glance at the girl caused him to sigh--and the sigh left his breath on the glass.

Streaking it with a wipe of his hand, he watched three boats ride the salty breeze into the bay. Proud sails stood on tall masts, rainbows of color splashed on white. They were late, he thought. They should have been there when the girl was robbed and murdered. He decided her name was Cathryn. No one would be able to tell him otherwise. And he liked the name. She still lay on the curb. Blood oozed through her white blouse and trickled onto the concrete. Her attacker had already fled. Cathryn was pretty, he decided. Although a little late to notice, he thought. He would like to have seen how the wind caught her chestnut hair, how the cool air colored her cheeks, how her topaz skirt ruffled and folded as she walked. It was a pity she had to die so young. He would like to have been able to get to know her. He sighed again. These streets were not for young girls--especially girls alone. Where had she been going? It couldn’t have been far. Again, he decided it didn’t matter and shrugged.

“Want me to warm that up for you, Mr. Daniels?” the waitress asked. 
 
He nodded and slid his mug toward her as he answered, “Please. And it’s Richard.” 
 
She refilled his coffee with a forced smile and scurried off to another table where she lapsed again into her mantra. The coffee smelled strong, so strong it drew his eyes away from her short skirt. He hated coffee that had sat too long on a hot burner. It made it too bitter. Sugar wouldn’t do. Bitter was better than bittersweet. He frowned as he sipped. The apple pie would help. He still had several bites left. He stabbed it with a fork, dirty long before he used it, and stuffed a chunk into his mouth. He nodded in satisfaction. There was bittersweet and then there was bitter and sweet. He definitely preferred the latter. He turned his gaze back to Cathryn as he chewed and wondered if she would have agreed.

Someone should go to her, he thought. Even in this part of town a girl shouldn’t be left to rot on the side of the street. But the few passersby who paid more than a curious glance just stared and walked past her. Not even a gawking crowd had bothered to gather. Scenes like this were far too common on this side of the bay for that. Getting home was more important than satisfying morbid curiosity. Should any stop and linger, they too might join her on the curb, another lump rising from the pavement for indifferent pedestrians to sidestep.

“Too bitter for you Mr. Daniels?” The red-haired waitress stood beside his table shredding a stick of gum with coffeepot in hand. “It gets that way sometimes.”

“It’s Richard,” he answered, and added, “and the coffee’s okay.”

She squinted and gave him a dubious stare. “You sure, Mr. Daniels? I saw that look on your face a moment ago. Looked like a face drinking bitter coffee to me.”

He returned her stare. “I suppose it is a bit more bitter than I like, but I’ll manage.”

Her stare grew into a scowl and her mouth reached a truce with her gum. “I bet you will, Mr. Daniels. I bet you will.” She radiated ripples of chill as she and her pot disappeared behind kitchen doors.

“You shouldn’t upset her like that.”

Richard found the man who had addressed him sitting two booths closer to the door and facing him with a frown worthy of a protective brother. Richard raised his brows. “Wasn’t aware I had.”

“I guess there’s a lot you’re not aware of.”

“I’m not sure I follow.”

“For a man holding all the cards, you sure don’t know what’s in your hand.”

Richard studied the man. He decided his name was Boris. He tilted his head giving him silent permission to vent his view.

Boris twisted his face in disdain. He spoke tight words through a tight sneer. “Take Rosie in there…you think she really cares if your coffee’s bitter? You think her sorry boss pays her enough to care? Or do you think her heart’s all butterflies and roses? Look around you man. For the love of God, look out there in the street! A girl’s knifed down so she won’t kick or scream when she’s robbed. The last thing she sees is cracked concrete rushing up to meet her. And you sit there sipping coffee, playing niceties with a waitress who has no choice but to try and survive this godforsaken deathtrap. It’s a living hell for every last one of us--except for you. This city’s rank, man. The stench is enough to strangle you. It’s like bile burning the back of your throat.”

Boris surveyed the café and Richard followed his gaze. The eyes of all the patrons were watching. The buzz of conversation was muted. Clanking silverware now hung suspended between mouths and plates, and a twinge of uneasiness churned in Richard’s stomach. He considered the burly, outspoken man. Was he just someone who happened in for a bite? No, he wouldn’t know Rosie if that were the case. But seeing no indication of more, Richard also dismissed the possibility of a relationship between the two. Just a regular, he decided. Someone who frequented the café. Someone who frequented the neighborhood’s horrors. 
 
Richard gave Boris a level stare. “It’s necessary,” he stated simply.

Boris’ bushy brows rose. “Necessary? Necessary!” He turned to the patrons transfixed on their exchange. “He says it’s necessary! The whole south side of Cathryn’s Bay is God’s own cesspool and the man says it’s necessary!” He fixed his fiery scowl back on Richard. “You have no idea what it’s like! You created this mess! You orchestrate our lives! It’s you who should pay! Not us!”

Silent onlookers began murmuring, their pitch a rising, disgruntled buzz. Richard felt their emotion. He could do that. He could determine what anyone felt…or thought. It was an ability uniquely his. He just wished these people could think for themselves at times. Having to do it for them was as much chore as delight. He put the thought aside and looked again at Cathryn. He longed to see the woman from across the bay.

Boris continued ranting. “Your little heroine isn’t coming, man. She’s fed up, too. You think she really wants to take on this whole damn city by herself? You think she’s grateful? You’re the one she’d like to see behind bars! How can you know her so intimately and still put her through all this?”

“Detective Jessica Tate is everything,” Richard answered. “Without her, I have no life. Without her, you have no life. You will endure…as she endures.”

Boris stood from the booth. “No, I won’t. I refuse to…endure…like this! It’s over! You’ll not profit from our misery any longer! Maybe I can’t just whip out a pen and change our destinies, but I can whip out this and change yours!” He reached behind his back and pulled out a pistol. He began firing indiscriminately. The patrons screamed and ducked behind tables and booths. Some were quick. Some weren’t. Boris didn’t care. With a single bullet remaining, he pointed the weapon at Richard and fired. 
 
Richard closed his eyes as he rubbed his chest. The mood was set. His mind contained everything it needed. He took a deep breath and sipped his coffee. Its rich flavor was perfect. Pulling a pen from his shirt pocket he began writing.

“Timothy Slate stared out the window and watched the girl die.”