Back to December

I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone
So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder that I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on
Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up
Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
I could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple

Taylor Swift

Dear daisy,

After a long pause upon returning from the UK, this is the first entry of the year - where I would like to reflect on myself and things in the past. I would be 31 year old this year, I finally completed my studies, and I am thankful to everyone for their help and support, love and prayers. I highly appreciate every little things that made my life so wonderful and will always remember them.

I don't have many things to say, because I am truly broken for what had happened in my life. There were many nice stories and accomplishments to cherish and to remember, but there were also disappointments and regrets - wish I could do things differently or chose different paths. These made me realize that I am only a human, there are many things that beyond my control.

I don't know how to begin, but let me start from being grateful to finally settle down in Malaysia. I am thankful for the opportunities to meet people and for the chances to spend time with family and friends.

Goodbye, dearly love.