Well, the world is a dumpster fire, and social media sites are the blustering, fetid wind that fuels the flame, so I'd like to spend less time on them and more time where I can natter on and post food photos and feel less dirty about the whole thing. So here we are. Does anyone still read blogs? Am I talking to myself? Maybe. And that's ok, too.
Wednesday, October 06, 2021
Saturday, January 26, 2019
500 Words week three winner: Omen
Mina couldn’t feel her toes. Or her ears. Or her nose. A cutting wind nearly knocked her to the ground; she crouched low, bending her knees and hunching her back while she waited out the gust. The sun was high and bright, but its warmth wasn’t strong enough to cut through the ferocious wind.
Only a bit farther to go. She was almost there. And while she longed to get out of the wind and into a sheltered place, the anxious knot in her stomach grew tighter and heavier as each step brought her nearer to her destination.
The lonely road was bleak and barren, coated with a dirty rime. The few trees along the road offered no shelter from the cold wind. There had been buildings all along this route once, but all that remained of them were evenly spaced concrete slabs that outlined the now-abandoned foundations.
Once this area had been measured in blocks, but no one thought of them that way anymore. That unit of measure no longer served a purpose. Still, Mina liked to count off the blocks between the shelter, where she lived with the rest of her community, and the temple, which she was required to visit every day, regardless of the weather. Four more blocks. And then at least she’d be out of the wind.
She struggled down the road to the end of the block, where another abandoned road crossed her path. Three more blocks. She could see the temple ahead of her now, getting closer.
A crow wheeled in front of her, seemingly out of control in the strong wind. It made a rough, graceless landing on the road in front of Mina, barely keeping to its feet. It shook out its wings, then folded them back and pinned Mina with its glass-black eye.
Mina froze. A crow was the worst possible omen. Death and destruction, fire and fury. Well, the fire part didn’t sound so bad right now. But a crow blocking her path as she walked to the temple must foretell disaster and sorrow. She stood as still as she could with the wind assaulting her, transfixed by the crow. In turn, the crow stood, statue-still even in the wind, and stared her down. It did not fear her as wild things should, and it did not flee her presence. Should she tell Father Lucas about this omen? No, no. No good would come of that.
She wanted to wait for the crow to fly away before continuing, but the bird was steadfast, and Mina was cold and late. She braced herself against the bird’s evil gaze as much as the wind, and took a step forward, expecting the bird to start and fly.
It did not.
She took another step, bringing her almost close enough to touch the crow, and still it held its ground. She turned to step around it, and the bird swiveled, still watching her every move.
The bird’s uncanny behavior was alarming, but Mina knew that if she was too late to the temple, she’d have to explain why, and explanations never went well with Father Lucas. She steeled herself, looked away from the bird, and stepped past it, intent on reaching the temple as quickly as possible.
After five steps, she felt a strange pressure on her right shoulder, almost light enough to mistake for the wind brushing its arms around her. She angled her head to peek out around the edge of her hood, and there, perched on her shoulder, was the crow.
She stopped again. Her stomach clenched, and she could hear her pulse pounding in her ears. The wind gusted again, and seemed as though it should have been strong enough to rip the crow of her shoulder, but its small claws dug into her thick coat, and it held steadfast. Two black feathers were torn away by the wind and flew down the road ahead of her.
Another omen, and very clear. She must get to the temple, now.
She hurried as best she could down the broken road and through the violent wind, chasing after the feathers, even after she’d lost sight of them. How in the world would she explain this to Father Lucas? What would she say?
As she approached the next intersection, the next block, she considered her options. She could try to tear the crow off her shoulder and release it into the wind. But she couldn’t bear the thought of touching such a foul omen, even with her thick mittens protecting her skin. She’d have to burn the mittens, and they were her only pair. She could try to explain to Father Lucas what had happened, and hope that he wouldn’t blame her for the appearance of the omen. But Father Lucas found fault with everyone and everything, and Mina was a common target of his disapproval. She had little hope that he would respond kindly to this omen, and the role she played in it.
One block to go. The temple, dark and tall and menacing, loomed near. And Mina still did not know what to do about this crow, this wretched bird that still clung tenaciously to her shoulder and sheltered beside her hood. Despite the frigid temperatures, Mina felt sweat pop out on her hands and forehead. Her heart continued to race, begging her to flee from imminent danger.
And still she plodded forward, following the path of the rouge feathers as they lead her to the temple door. She passed the last intersection and was now on the same block as the temple. She could see now that the front door was open — very odd in weather like this. And a figure stood just inside the shadow of the door. Father Lucas. Looking for her. Wondering why she was late.
There was no helping it now. She was in plain sight, with the crow still firmly attached. If he hadn’t seen it yet, he soon would. She covered the last few steps and approached the oversized front door of the temple, walking up the three shallow steps that led her directly to Father Lucas.
He stood silent, watching her. He said nothing, and did not so much as glance at the crow. But he held in his hand two glossy black feathers.
Mina stood shivering before the door, longing for shelter but afraid to speak, to move. At length, Father Lucas stepped aside and gestured for her to enter. She hurried in, and hoped that perhaps the crow would choose to fly away now rather than join her in the temple. But no; the crow remained in its place, unmoving.
Father Lucas let the door fall shut behind her with a heavy thud, and threw the heavy iron bolt to keep it closed against the wind. Mina’s eyes struggled to adjust to the dark interior of the temple. A few lit candles cast wavering light from where they sat on high shelves around the entryway. A dark opening before her led to the sanctuary. There, the sacred fire would be burning, but Mina could not see it from here.
Normally, Mina would enter the temple after knocking and waiting for Father Lucas to unlatch the door for her. She would silently remove her outerwear and then wash in the basin of clean water that waited just inside the door. She would then follow Father Lucas into the sanctuary, where she would learn the day’s lessons and participate in the day’s divinations. Sometimes, when she was early, she would run into Tara, the acolyte from the northern settlement. And sometimes when she left, she’d pass Jina, who came from the eastern settlement. All throughout the day, every day, Father Lucas had acolytes come, one at a time, each chosen by her community, to learn from him, assist him, bring him offerings of food and other goods, and facilitate the divinations upon which all the communities relied.
Mina hated it, and didn’t understand why she had been selected as her community’s acolyte, but there was no arguing about it. After a few years, she’d be deemed either sufficiently educated or too old to bother with, and she’d be able to return to a life of working with her siblings and neighbors to maintain and provide for their settlement. But until then, she had to endure Father Lucas’s unintelligible lessons, constant criticism, and, as far as she could tell, meaningless divinations. The elders had great reverence for the divinations, and were anxious to hear them from her each day, but Mina had never once understood one, or thought it to be profound or prophetic. She kept her opinions to herself and quietly, meekly served out her time as acolyte. This, too, would end, as all things do.
But today, she had lost the rhythms of their normal routines, and she didn’t know what to do. What would happen if she took off her coat with the crow attached? Dare she approach the water basin, with such an unclean creature clinging to her? She turned to look at Father Lucas, hoping for some guidance, scared to ask.
He stood watching her, apparently waiting for something. As soon as she made eye contact with him, he nodded and spoke.
“We knew from yesterday’s reading that this was coming, but I did not expect the chosen messenger to be you. Tell me, Mina, has the Watcher revealed its name to you yet?”
Friday, January 25, 2019
The Collection (500 Words short story project, January 25, 2019)
Ivy felt like she could finally take a full breath, after a season of gasping for air. The season was done, as was the accounting of it, and Ivy could pack away her ledger books and pens until the next season began. The interval was never as long as she’d like, but the pause was welcome nonetheless.
Ivy’s small cupboard of a workspace was dark and cramped, with scraps of paper and mislaid books on every cramped surface. She was working at gathering, replacing, and tidying up when she heard a knock on the open door.
She turned to look and saw an unfamiliar woman watching her. “Yes? How can I help you?” Ivy asked, barely taking her attention away from her task.
The woman stood silently for a few moments, and then cleared her throat and began, “Mistress Accountant, I need to speak with you on a rather urgent and serious matter.”
Nothing could be terribly urgent or serious this time of year, Ivy though. The season was done. The workers had scattered to their home communes for the interval. The heavy equipment of the collective was disassembled and stowed away. Her final reports had already been sent to the district governor, so there was no changing them now. The only thing that happened during the interval was …
“Oh,” Ivy exhaled, as if punched in the gut. Her knees went weak, and she gripped the edge of her desk for support. “You want to talk to me?” Now she turned her full attention on the stranger, examining her.
The woman had a severe face, thin and sharp, without a hint of mirth. Her clothing was all black, a modest and formal dress with a high neck, long sleeves, and not a touch of lace. Her hair was pulled back into a tight bun, so tight it must have been giving her a headache. She held a darn, worn leather folder in the crook of one elbow, and carried a sturdy black bag in the other hand.
“Yes, Mistress Accountant. I am here to speak with you.” There was no malice but also no empathy in the woman’s voice. She was cold and serious, almost lifeless.
A job like hers probably beats the joy out of you pretty quickly, a part of Ivy’s mind observed. The rest of her mind was frozen, and a rising terror was spreading out from her navel, burning up to her heart and down through her toes. She could summon no words to respond to the stranger.
Another moment passed, and the stranger spoke again. “I see you know why I’m here, Mistress Accountant. You are perhaps thinking this is ill luck, but I assure you this business will be over quickly, and it’s not as terrible as you seem to fear.”
Ivy nodded, numb. She wanted to flee, to fight, but there was no point. When a district collector came to pay you a call, there was no appeal and no escape.
“As you already suspect, you have been selected for the collection. You will come with me immediately. You may not gather personal items or say goodbye to associates or loved ones. They will be informed of your status via official notice.” She stepped forward and handed the black bag to Ivy, who took it without thinking. “These are all of your possessions now. Do not lose them.” With her hand now free, she took Ivy’s elbow in an iron grip and steered her toward the door. “It’s time for us to go.”
(This post is part of the 500 Words short story project.)
Ivy’s small cupboard of a workspace was dark and cramped, with scraps of paper and mislaid books on every cramped surface. She was working at gathering, replacing, and tidying up when she heard a knock on the open door.
She turned to look and saw an unfamiliar woman watching her. “Yes? How can I help you?” Ivy asked, barely taking her attention away from her task.
The woman stood silently for a few moments, and then cleared her throat and began, “Mistress Accountant, I need to speak with you on a rather urgent and serious matter.”
Nothing could be terribly urgent or serious this time of year, Ivy though. The season was done. The workers had scattered to their home communes for the interval. The heavy equipment of the collective was disassembled and stowed away. Her final reports had already been sent to the district governor, so there was no changing them now. The only thing that happened during the interval was …
“Oh,” Ivy exhaled, as if punched in the gut. Her knees went weak, and she gripped the edge of her desk for support. “You want to talk to me?” Now she turned her full attention on the stranger, examining her.
The woman had a severe face, thin and sharp, without a hint of mirth. Her clothing was all black, a modest and formal dress with a high neck, long sleeves, and not a touch of lace. Her hair was pulled back into a tight bun, so tight it must have been giving her a headache. She held a darn, worn leather folder in the crook of one elbow, and carried a sturdy black bag in the other hand.
“Yes, Mistress Accountant. I am here to speak with you.” There was no malice but also no empathy in the woman’s voice. She was cold and serious, almost lifeless.
A job like hers probably beats the joy out of you pretty quickly, a part of Ivy’s mind observed. The rest of her mind was frozen, and a rising terror was spreading out from her navel, burning up to her heart and down through her toes. She could summon no words to respond to the stranger.
Another moment passed, and the stranger spoke again. “I see you know why I’m here, Mistress Accountant. You are perhaps thinking this is ill luck, but I assure you this business will be over quickly, and it’s not as terrible as you seem to fear.”
Ivy nodded, numb. She wanted to flee, to fight, but there was no point. When a district collector came to pay you a call, there was no appeal and no escape.
“As you already suspect, you have been selected for the collection. You will come with me immediately. You may not gather personal items or say goodbye to associates or loved ones. They will be informed of your status via official notice.” She stepped forward and handed the black bag to Ivy, who took it without thinking. “These are all of your possessions now. Do not lose them.” With her hand now free, she took Ivy’s elbow in an iron grip and steered her toward the door. “It’s time for us to go.”
(This post is part of the 500 Words short story project.)
Thursday, January 24, 2019
Omen (500 Words short story project, January 24, 2019)
Mina couldn’t feel her toes. Or her ears. Or her nose. A cutting wind nearly knocked her to the ground; she crouched low, bending her knees and hunching her back while she waited out the gust. The sun was high and bright, but its warmth wasn’t strong enough to cut through the ferocious wind.
Only a bit farther to go. She was almost there. And while she longed to get out of the wind and into a sheltered place, the anxious knot in her stomach grew tighter and heavier as each step brought her nearer to her destination.
The lonely road was bleak and barren, coated with a dirty rime. The few trees along the road offered no shelter from the cold wind. There had been buildings all along this route once, but all that remained of them were evenly spaced concrete slabs that outlined the now-abandoned foundations.
Once this area had been measured in blocks, but no one thought of them that way anymore. That unit of measure no longer served a purpose. Still, Mina liked to count off the blocks between the shelter, where she lived with the rest of her community, and the temple, which she was required to visit every day, regardless of the weather. Four more blocks. And then at least she’d be out of the wind.
She struggled down the road to the end of the block, where another abandoned road crossed her path. Three more blocks. She could see the temple ahead of her now, getting closer.
A crow wheeled in front of her, seemingly out of control in the strong wind. It made a rough, graceless landing on the road in front of Mina, barely keeping to its feet. It shook out its wings, then folded them back and pinned Mina with its glass-black eye.
Mina froze. A crow was the worst possible omen. Death and destruction, fire and fury. Well, the fire part didn’t sound so bad right now. But a crow blocking her path as she walked to the temple must foretell disaster and sorrow. She stood as still as she could with the wind assaulting her, transfixed by the crow. In turn, the crow stood, statue-still even in the wind, and stared her down. It did not fear her as wild things should, and it did not flee her presence. Should she tell Father Lucas about this omen? No, no. No good would come of that.
She wanted to wait for the crow to fly away before continuing, but the bird was steadfast, and Mina was cold and late. She braced herself against the bird’s evil gaze as much as the wind, and took a step forward, expecting the bird to start and fly.
It did not.
She took another step, bringing her almost close enough to touch the crow, and still it held its ground. She turned to step around it, and the bird swiveled, still watching her every move.
The bird’s uncanny behavior was alarming, but Mina knew that if she was too late to the temple, she’d have to explain why, and explanations never went well with Father Lucas. She steeled herself, looked away from the bird, and stepped past it, intent on reaching the temple as quickly as possible.
After five steps, she felt a strange pressure on her right shoulder, almost light enough to mistake for the wind brushing its arms around her. She angled her head to peek out around the edge of her hood, and there, perched on her shoulder, was the crow.
(This post is part of the 500 Words short story project.)
Only a bit farther to go. She was almost there. And while she longed to get out of the wind and into a sheltered place, the anxious knot in her stomach grew tighter and heavier as each step brought her nearer to her destination.
The lonely road was bleak and barren, coated with a dirty rime. The few trees along the road offered no shelter from the cold wind. There had been buildings all along this route once, but all that remained of them were evenly spaced concrete slabs that outlined the now-abandoned foundations.
Once this area had been measured in blocks, but no one thought of them that way anymore. That unit of measure no longer served a purpose. Still, Mina liked to count off the blocks between the shelter, where she lived with the rest of her community, and the temple, which she was required to visit every day, regardless of the weather. Four more blocks. And then at least she’d be out of the wind.
She struggled down the road to the end of the block, where another abandoned road crossed her path. Three more blocks. She could see the temple ahead of her now, getting closer.
A crow wheeled in front of her, seemingly out of control in the strong wind. It made a rough, graceless landing on the road in front of Mina, barely keeping to its feet. It shook out its wings, then folded them back and pinned Mina with its glass-black eye.
Mina froze. A crow was the worst possible omen. Death and destruction, fire and fury. Well, the fire part didn’t sound so bad right now. But a crow blocking her path as she walked to the temple must foretell disaster and sorrow. She stood as still as she could with the wind assaulting her, transfixed by the crow. In turn, the crow stood, statue-still even in the wind, and stared her down. It did not fear her as wild things should, and it did not flee her presence. Should she tell Father Lucas about this omen? No, no. No good would come of that.
She wanted to wait for the crow to fly away before continuing, but the bird was steadfast, and Mina was cold and late. She braced herself against the bird’s evil gaze as much as the wind, and took a step forward, expecting the bird to start and fly.
It did not.
She took another step, bringing her almost close enough to touch the crow, and still it held its ground. She turned to step around it, and the bird swiveled, still watching her every move.
The bird’s uncanny behavior was alarming, but Mina knew that if she was too late to the temple, she’d have to explain why, and explanations never went well with Father Lucas. She steeled herself, looked away from the bird, and stepped past it, intent on reaching the temple as quickly as possible.
After five steps, she felt a strange pressure on her right shoulder, almost light enough to mistake for the wind brushing its arms around her. She angled her head to peek out around the edge of her hood, and there, perched on her shoulder, was the crow.
(This post is part of the 500 Words short story project.)
Wednesday, January 23, 2019
Liar (500 Words short story project, January 23, 2019)
You always do this to me, you know. Well, not just to me. To everyone. You drag us all into your ridiculous stories and hoaxes and conspiracies, and not one of us has the guts to stand up and tell you we don’t buy it, we’re not playing your games anymore. I’m mostly sure you don’t believe this garbage, either. But not one hundred percent sure. What’s going on inside your head? When you lie, do you even know you’re lying?
I used to think I understood you inside and out, that I had you pegged. I would confidently whisper to our mutual friends, “Oh, you know how Sarah is. She’s a pathological liar. She does it for the attention.” But lately, I just don’t know.
You showed up to work that Monday morning breathless and buzzing. “You will not believe what happened to me last weekend!” you gushed.
And I thought, you’re right. I already don’t believe it. But the new girl, Gina from HR, was both kind enough and naive enough to say, “Oh? What happened?” And stood listening with her mouth half-open, ready to swallow whole whatever tale you trotted out this time.
“I was out driving,” you began, and that’s when I started to check out and wander away from the break room. I already had my morning mug of tea, and the daily crossword puzzle wasn’t going to solve itself.
“Krin, where are you going?” you called after me, and I froze midstep, a grimace on my face. “You’ll to want to hear this — it will be especially of interest to you!”
“Yes, come back!” sweet, dumb Gina cajoled.
I sighed, and turned back into the break room. “I can’t stay long, Sarah. I have a lot to get through this morning.” I had some good theories about 4 down, “heroic canine.” But I could tell I wasn’t going to get out of listening to this story without a fight.
“So, like I was saying, I was out for a drive. I like to do that on weekends — just get out of the city and wander for a bit. It helps me to clear my head.” You paused here and sighed, staring into the middle distance. Gina was doubtless imaging the many wearisome troubles that cause you such distress that you must flee the city to seek solace.
“And?” I asked, hoping to moving things along. “Then what?”
You flashed a quick, irritated glare at me — you hated it when anyone interrupted your flow. “Well, usually I drive out west of town, out where the bluffs are. I like to feel like I’m sheltered by their protective embrace as I ponder life’s sorrows. But this time, something spoke to me. It might have been a spirit from beyond. I’ve been in communication with my third-great-grandmother for the last few weeks, and I can sense that she’s guiding me toward a great revelation. So when I felt her hand moving the steering wheel, I allowed her to dictate my path. I have complete faith in my ancestors, of course.”
Gina, still wide-eyed and open-mouthed, nodded in appreciation. I just barely disguised a derisive snort by covering it with a cough.
“Grandma take the wheel,” I quipped. “And where did dear Grandmama lead you?”
Again you threw a brief glare at me, but your features quickly returned to calm serenity. “Krin, I can’t believe you don’t know. I mean, you should have sensed it, I’d have thought.” You smirked a bit, knowing you had Gina on the hook, and thinking you might be about to hook me as well. “Dearest Grandmother Maude led me to your backyard.”
(This post is part of the 500 Words short story project.)
Tuesday, January 22, 2019
A New Place (500 Words short story project, January 22, 2019)
There was pain, overwhelming and unexpected. A tearing, a loosening. And then, drifting, driftless, weightless, unanchored. Esther wanted to reach for something solid, something to hold, but she couldn’t remember how to reach, and couldn’t see anything to grab. What had been darkness bled into a sudden rushing brightness that blinded and enveloped her. A new sound overwhelmed her senses -- a throbbing, grinding, pulsing sound, fuzzy static turned up to maximum volume. She wanted to shield her eyes, her ears, but her arms weren’t working properly, wouldn’t answer her call.
After an endless time had passed, perhaps a few moments, perhaps many years, the light began to soften, or perhaps Esther had simply adapted to it. The static in her ears began to take on a structure, peaks and valleys, a cadence that was familiar but just beyond understanding. She looked around her, because she couldn’t not look -- her eyelids were as unresponsive as the rest of her body -- and she saw a soft blue-white glow that slowly revealed moving shadows, distant but perhaps coming nearer.
Esther realized that, while her eyes and ears were overwhelmed with input, she had no other physical sensations. She could no move her body, and she also could not be sure that she had a body. She could feel anything around her, nor could she take in a breath to see if her surroundings had a scent. She could not open her mouth to taste the air or the light. She could not turn her head to look at herself, whatever might remain of her. She was reduced to what she could see and hear, a disembodied, powerless consciousness.
I should panic, she thought. But she was not panicking. A calm curiosity was all she felt. Where am I? What happened to me? Who is that? For now one of the shadows was resolving into a vaguely humanlike shape, and it came nearer and nearer, with Esther clearly its object and destination.
The rhythms of the static sound further refined into something like words, as though Esther were hearing them underwater and couldn’t quite catch their edges. As the shadow drew nearer, the sound became clearer, and Esther began to understand.
“Yes, you will have so many questions!” suddenly filled Esther’s mind. The voice, warm and deep and comforting, poured a river of words into her, one tumbling over the next. “Well, I can answer some of them for you, and time will answer others. Oh, we’re going to get on so well, my dear! Let me introduce myself! Oh, no, I see you’re not quite ready for that yet. Let us get you sorted out first.”
What is happening? Esther wondered but didn’t say, because she still could not access her mouth, her vocal cords, her lungs.
And yet the voice answered her: “Indeed, first things first! Dear one, you are dead! Isn’t that wonderful? And I am so fortunate as to be assigned to you as you adjust to your new existence! Oh, it’s all just so exciting, isn’t it?”
(This post is part of the 500 Words short story project.)
After an endless time had passed, perhaps a few moments, perhaps many years, the light began to soften, or perhaps Esther had simply adapted to it. The static in her ears began to take on a structure, peaks and valleys, a cadence that was familiar but just beyond understanding. She looked around her, because she couldn’t not look -- her eyelids were as unresponsive as the rest of her body -- and she saw a soft blue-white glow that slowly revealed moving shadows, distant but perhaps coming nearer.
Esther realized that, while her eyes and ears were overwhelmed with input, she had no other physical sensations. She could no move her body, and she also could not be sure that she had a body. She could feel anything around her, nor could she take in a breath to see if her surroundings had a scent. She could not open her mouth to taste the air or the light. She could not turn her head to look at herself, whatever might remain of her. She was reduced to what she could see and hear, a disembodied, powerless consciousness.
I should panic, she thought. But she was not panicking. A calm curiosity was all she felt. Where am I? What happened to me? Who is that? For now one of the shadows was resolving into a vaguely humanlike shape, and it came nearer and nearer, with Esther clearly its object and destination.
The rhythms of the static sound further refined into something like words, as though Esther were hearing them underwater and couldn’t quite catch their edges. As the shadow drew nearer, the sound became clearer, and Esther began to understand.
“Yes, you will have so many questions!” suddenly filled Esther’s mind. The voice, warm and deep and comforting, poured a river of words into her, one tumbling over the next. “Well, I can answer some of them for you, and time will answer others. Oh, we’re going to get on so well, my dear! Let me introduce myself! Oh, no, I see you’re not quite ready for that yet. Let us get you sorted out first.”
What is happening? Esther wondered but didn’t say, because she still could not access her mouth, her vocal cords, her lungs.
And yet the voice answered her: “Indeed, first things first! Dear one, you are dead! Isn’t that wonderful? And I am so fortunate as to be assigned to you as you adjust to your new existence! Oh, it’s all just so exciting, isn’t it?”
(This post is part of the 500 Words short story project.)
Monday, January 21, 2019
Invasive (500 Words short story project, January 21, 2019)
The cave opening exhaled. Warm air rushed across my face and tangled in my hair, rejecting me. Still, I stepped closer, placing one hand against the glistening rock wall. It shivered beneath my skin, revulsion and disgust and fear.
Sorrow filled me, and perhaps the cave could sense my sorrow, but it did not relent. The cave made it clear that I was not welcome in this place.
So be it.
The entry was mere inches above my head, and so narrow that I had merely to breathe deep and stretch my shoulders wide to brush against the walls. As I stepped inside, the rock walls recoiled, expanding the space just a hair. I kept my body close. While I couldn’t avoid violating this sacred space, I had no desire to increase the cave’s discomfort.
“I am sorry,” I murmured. The gust of wind intensified, then faded to the faintest breeze. Perhaps detente.
I kept my lantern dim. The faintest light was sufficient to illuminate this interior. Every photon danced in the sparkling minerals trapped within the rough and uneven walls. Still the rock strained away from me, but the light, never felt by the dark reaches of the cave, filled it with the beginnings of delight. A rumble, coarse and scolding, rained dust and debris down on my head. Do not attempt to woo me, the cave whispered with every shudder.
“I must use this light to find my way,” I replied.
The rumble faded, and the glimmering of the walls around me seemed to flash and shine. I stepped deeper into the cave.
Here and there, water escaped captivity in the mountain above me and burst forth in determined droplets, reaching cautiously down and then letting go, plummeting into the embrace of the smooth rock floor. Each drop tapped a message to me, but I was not yet able to decipher their code.
Perhaps if I had, things would have gone differently.
After a time, the glimmering of the rock walls dulled. The droplets faded behind me, tapping only to themselves. The breath of the cave was but the faintest whisper, hardly able to dislodge a single strand of my hair. And the walls of the cave pulled in tight ahead of me, huddled so close together that they would not, could not let me through.
“Here, now,” I said. “You know this is where I need to go.”
Stony silence met my words. I extinguished my lamp, and through the narrow crevasse before me I could see just the faintest glow. It pulsed a sickly green, and here the breeze took on the scent of rancid oil, rotten flesh.
“You don’t have to hold on to this,” I whispered. “I can help you, if you’ll let me.”
From deep within the mountain around me, I could feel more than hear a grinding shriek, rock against rock, bone against bone. The crevasse tightened before me, nearly closing entirely.
I adopted a stern tone, chiding and motherly. “You cannot hide from your problems forever. Let me take this burden from you, before it overwhelms you.”
But what happened next caught me off guard. The light, acid and poison and bile, flashed bright enough to blind me, strong enough to wrap bands around me hold me fast. I could not breath. I could not move. The cave cringed in terror, and I was crushed between its cowering walls. “Fear not,” I gasped. “I can help you.” But my strangled words were too faint to hear over the quaking earth.
Sorrow filled me, and perhaps the cave could sense my sorrow, but it did not relent. The cave made it clear that I was not welcome in this place.
So be it.
The entry was mere inches above my head, and so narrow that I had merely to breathe deep and stretch my shoulders wide to brush against the walls. As I stepped inside, the rock walls recoiled, expanding the space just a hair. I kept my body close. While I couldn’t avoid violating this sacred space, I had no desire to increase the cave’s discomfort.
“I am sorry,” I murmured. The gust of wind intensified, then faded to the faintest breeze. Perhaps detente.
I kept my lantern dim. The faintest light was sufficient to illuminate this interior. Every photon danced in the sparkling minerals trapped within the rough and uneven walls. Still the rock strained away from me, but the light, never felt by the dark reaches of the cave, filled it with the beginnings of delight. A rumble, coarse and scolding, rained dust and debris down on my head. Do not attempt to woo me, the cave whispered with every shudder.
“I must use this light to find my way,” I replied.
The rumble faded, and the glimmering of the walls around me seemed to flash and shine. I stepped deeper into the cave.
Here and there, water escaped captivity in the mountain above me and burst forth in determined droplets, reaching cautiously down and then letting go, plummeting into the embrace of the smooth rock floor. Each drop tapped a message to me, but I was not yet able to decipher their code.
Perhaps if I had, things would have gone differently.
After a time, the glimmering of the rock walls dulled. The droplets faded behind me, tapping only to themselves. The breath of the cave was but the faintest whisper, hardly able to dislodge a single strand of my hair. And the walls of the cave pulled in tight ahead of me, huddled so close together that they would not, could not let me through.
“Here, now,” I said. “You know this is where I need to go.”
Stony silence met my words. I extinguished my lamp, and through the narrow crevasse before me I could see just the faintest glow. It pulsed a sickly green, and here the breeze took on the scent of rancid oil, rotten flesh.
“You don’t have to hold on to this,” I whispered. “I can help you, if you’ll let me.”
From deep within the mountain around me, I could feel more than hear a grinding shriek, rock against rock, bone against bone. The crevasse tightened before me, nearly closing entirely.
I adopted a stern tone, chiding and motherly. “You cannot hide from your problems forever. Let me take this burden from you, before it overwhelms you.”
But what happened next caught me off guard. The light, acid and poison and bile, flashed bright enough to blind me, strong enough to wrap bands around me hold me fast. I could not breath. I could not move. The cave cringed in terror, and I was crushed between its cowering walls. “Fear not,” I gasped. “I can help you.” But my strangled words were too faint to hear over the quaking earth.
(This post is part of the 500 Words short story project.)
Sunday, January 20, 2019
500 Words week two winner: Blue
The landscape flickered once and then became solid, more real than reality. Blue took three steps forward and felt her feet sinking into the sand, felt a breeze blowing in from the body of water before her. Was it an ocean? A large lake? Blue couldn’t be sure. But the sand was lovely, warm and soft against her bare feet.
She walked out to the edge of the water and dipped in her toes. It was shockingly cold, given the warmth of the sand and the apparent sunlight blazing above her. She stepped back and turned to walk down the line of the water. It had happened somewhere around here, and if she kept her eyes open, she should be able to see some sign of it.
A breeze blew against her skin, colder than she’d expect for this sunny day. Goosebumps popped up on her exposed arms, and she hugged them tight across her chest. It was an odd disconnect that served to remind her of where she really was.
The beach was wide and empty before her, but back a few dozen meters from the water a dense wall of scrubby trees seemed to scowl at her. Somewhere in there, it must have been.
Yes, as she drew near, she spotted a narrow path that led into the trees. She could see murky green light inside — sunlight, or something that might as well be sunlight, filtered through a thick layer of trees.
The path wasn’t terribly inviting — low bushes clustered close, and their branches were crowded with long, narrow thorns. Heavy tree limbs hung low enough that even Blue, who was rather on the short side, would need to crouch down while on the path. The ground here shifted from fine sand to sharp gravel. “Shoes,” Blue said, and sturdy hiking shoes appeared on her feet, with soft socks nestled inside.
She entered the path, doing her best to avoid touching any of the branches. Nothing here could mortally wound her, but that didn’t mean she couldn’t pick up minor scrapes and bruises. She considered donning thicker clothing that covered more of her body, but the was warmer and stuffy back among the trees, and she didn’t want to be even more uncomfortable. She inched her way deeper into the trees, dodging branches that seemed to reach out for her.
After walking the path for several minutes, she heard a distant, musical sound. She could almost have mistaken it for birdsong, but it was too mechanical to be natural. The sound was repetitive, a simple four-note melody, and it was accompanied by the faintest whirring noise. As she walked, the sound swiftly grew louder, and after just a few more steps, the path abruptly opened into a small clearing. If Blue had been able to stand in the middle of the clearing, the surrounding trees would be just barely out of reach of her fingertips. But she couldn’t stand in the middle, because that space was occupied.
A shining metal object stood in the middle of the clearing. It was a narrow oval, about as tall as Blue and a bit wider than her shoulders. The surface was an iridescent silver, gleaming in the green light. As soon as Blue entered the clearing, the sound stopped, and the object began to glow a pulsing, otherworldly aquamarine. A voice that came from everywhere and nowhere said, “Welcome. Please step inside.” And then the oval split in half, revealing a dark and vast interior.
Blue felt a chill that had nothing to do with the breezes. This Robin’s Egg should never have made its way past the High-Atmosphere Defense Shield. There hadn’t been one on the surface of the planet in decades, precisely because HADS had been put in place to keep them out. How had this one slipped through? Would others? Had others slipped through already, undetected?
Blue stepped close, and the pod began to vibrate in anticipation. She leaned in to look inside, but the interior was nothing but the deepest void, endless and empty all at once.
“Well,” she said to no one, “let’s give this a try.” And she stepped into the blackness.
Everything Blue could see shifted and splintered and spun around her, and Blue fought down a wave of motion sickness. Then all went black — not the blackness of the interior of the egg, but a simpler, flatter, more mundane darkness. A dark room, the lights unexpectedly switched off. Nothing supernatural about it.
And then a voice in her ear: “What the hell just happened, Blue? Did you break the simulation?”
“Sorry,” Blue replied, and then flinched as harsh bluish-white lights flickered on, revealing the boxy room she’d been in all along. “That simulation was amazing, Dot. The new upgrade makes a huge difference. I could actually feel the sand on my feet.”
A door opened to Blue’s right, and someone joined her in the now-barren room. “Don’t try to change the subject. What did you do to my simulation?”
“I found the Robin’s Egg,” Blue replied. “Dot, how did it get here?”
“That shouldn’t have broken the simulation,” Dot replied.
Blue gave a sheepish chuckle. “Well, I entered it.”
“You what?!” Dot stared at her in horror.
“I wanted to see what would happen! The simulation is safe, right? It couldn’t whisk me away or anything.” Blue put a hand on Dot’s arm and took on an apologetic tone. “I’m sorry, Dot. I’ve just never been that close to a Robin’s Egg before. Not even in a simulation. I was curious.”
“Curious? Well, that’s lovely. I think you fried my newly upgraded system with your curiosity.” Dot shook her head. “I should have known something like that would happen.”
“How could you? We’ve never used the simulator to find a Robin’s Egg before. This is uncharted territory. Is it really ruined?” Blue started to feel a bit embarrassed. She hadn’t even considered the affect her actions might have on the delicate interworkings of the simulator’s machinery.
“Maybe. I’m going to have to tinker with it and see what I can fix. Regardless, we won’t be simulating anything for a few days, at least.”
“Damn,” Blue replied. “I’d like another look at that Egg.”
“Are you crazy?” Dot exclaimed. “Why would you want to get anywhere near one?”
“It’s just a simulation! It’s safe in there.” Blue thought it was safe, anyway. You never could tell, when it came to Robin’s Eggs.
Dot snorted in response. “Safe. Sure. Well, your curiosity is going to have to live without the Egg or my simulator, at least for now. At least you figured it where it is, right?”
“I think so,” Blue replied. “It was definitely North America, and the body of water looked like a Great Lake. Michigan, maybe? I’m going to triangulate a few things, but I think I can narrow it down.”
Dot got a suspicious look on her face. “Blue. Tell me you’re not going to try to find in for real. Because that would be a terrible idea.”
All innocence, Blue said, “What? I wouldn’t dream of it!”
Unconvinced, Dot continued, “You need to leave that to the professionals. Just tell the team where you think it is, so they can create the quarantine zone.” Dot caught Blue’s eyes and held them. “Seriously, Dot. Promise me.”
Blue couldn’t look away, and found it terribly hard to lie to Dot while making eye contact. “Come on, Dot! What do you take me for?”
Dot raised an eyebrow, but let the matter drop. “I’ll be in my office. For many, many hours. While I clean up the mess you just made for me. Please keep out of trouble.” And then Dot exited to the hallway.
Blue watched her go, and then checked her watch. She’d been in the simulator for about an hour, only half the time she and Dot had scheduled for this exercise. So the team wouldn’t come looking for her assessment, and her guess about the location of the Egg, for at least another hour. If she was quick, she could home in on the location and hop on a flight before anyone knew what she was doing.
Blue stepped to the door and checked the hallway before entering it — empty. Good. Dot had probably forgotten all about her by now and was elbows deep in her simulator repairs. Blue darted down the hall and into her own office, staying just long enough to grab her computer and notepad. Then, back into the hall and to a side door that let her out into the grassy mall. The Department of Planetary Defense building was just one of a cluster of ugly office buildings that crouched around a bland expanse of manicured grass and evenly spaced shrubs. Benches were placed at regular intervals with military precision. But just past the end of the mall was an unruly tangle of trees that hadn’t yet been tamed by the groundskeeper. Blue headed for the trees in search of a sheltered spot to sit and work. There would be no witness in the little copse, and the team was unlikely to come looking for her here.
Friday, January 18, 2019
Control (500 Words short story project, January 18, 2019)
It seemed like a fairy tale, one that couldn’t possibly be true, but I had lived in the days before the Reorganization. I remembered what it was like to make your own choices in life. I could recall having a closet full of clothes and choosing each day which suited my mood. I remember lazy summer afternoons when I could spend hours trying do decide whether to go for a bike ride or read a magazine or just stare into the hazy humidity rising from the sun-beaten grass of our fenced-in backyard.
When I whispered about those days to my younger colleagues, who had been babies or not even born yet when the Committee took control, they gave me incredulous stares and shook their heads. They couldn’t imagine a life like that. They were sure I was making it up. I started to wonder myself.
I was young, 12 years old, when the Reorganization happened — they called it a return to decency, and started dictating every minute of every person’s life. Suddenly we all had Committee-issued monitors in every room of every home. They gave them a nonthreatening feminine voice, a cute name (Darla), and a bubbly personality so we would overlook the invasion of privacy, the loss of independence, and just enjoy the fact that Darla would give us fun facts and play approved music in addition to informing us when it was time to get up, to work, to eat, to sleep.
Darla (or, rather, the Committee via Darla) gave every adult a new work assignment, and cheered the fact that now every adult was gainfully employed. Everyone under 16 was assigned to an education center, but the things we learned were very different from what we had been taught in our old schools. Everyone wore the same clothes, all the time. You didn’t need a full closet anymore — just a few changes of the same slate-gray pants, shirt, socks, jackets. The Committee knew we’d be more productive if we didn’t have to trouble ourselves with meaningless choices about what to wear each day.
It’s odd to look back on that time and see that so few people rebelled, so few spoke out against the authoritarian changes. Oh, some did, but so many people were happy with the changes. The world was too confusing, they said. We didn’t really need to make so many choices. We’d all be so much happier just letting Darla and the Committee choose for us. So the dissenters were few, and each time one of them spoke out, they swiftly disappeared. Some were never seen again, and some would return after weeks or months, quiet and subdued and compliant with Darla’s every request. They didn’t talk about where they had been, or what had been done to them, but whispered rumors said that they had been subjected to terrible physical and psychological tortures as part of a reeducation program.
I didn’t plan to verify the truth of those rumors, really I didn’t. It’s just that I was so tired of wearing gray every single day.
One morning, a Tuesday in February, I couldn’t take the crushing gray any longer. I found a bright yellow silk scarf that I’d kept hidden under my mattress, one of the few things I had been able to squirrel away from the old days.
I wrapped the yellow scarf around my neck and wore it to my job at the Acceptable News Bureau. I made it three steps into the lobby before the guards grabbed me.
Thursday, January 17, 2019
Balance (500 Words short story project, January 17, 2019)
I had just come off a doozy of a bad day — stepped in a deep puddle in my favorite shoes while running to catch a bus I still missed — and was hoping to spend the rest of my evening drying out and eating a not-too-disgusting microwave meal for one when a strange number popped up on my phone.
Like most sane adults, I don’t answer phone calls like that. I let them go to voicemail, because they’re almost always telemarketers or collections agencies or robocalls reminding me about my upcoming physical exam. I don’t have time for that.
But I had been thinking a lot lately about my theory of cosmic balance, and how bad my day had already been. Whoever was calling, I figured I’d better just answer and deal with it, instead of letting some threatening voicemail message simmer and brew for days while I avoided looking at the blaring red “New message!” notification and tried to pretend it didn’t exist. That never turns out well.
“Hello?” I said in a brusque, no-nonsense tone. I wanted whomever was calling to know I had very little tolerance for shenanigans.
The voice that responded was deep but soft-spoken, and the speaker took his time with each word, savoring every phoneme as they passed across his lips. “Yes, good evening. I’m looking for Angela Johnson.”
I don’t really like confirming my identity for strangers, so I hedged. “May I ask who’s calling?”
“Of course, of course,” he responded. “My name is Dr. Hector Bridgeton. I’m calling to confirm an appointment with Ms. Johnson.”
I rolled my eyes. Of course it’s just a stupid doctor’s appointment confirmation call. I started to give the standard reply (“Yes, of course, I’ll be there, I’ll bring my insurance card and copay, see you then, whatever”), expect that a) I was fairly sure I didn’t have a doctor’s appointment of any kind coming up, and b) I was quite certain I’d never made an appointment with anyone named Dr. Hector Bridgeton.
“Uh, Dr. Bridgeton? I think you must have the wrong number. I don’t have an appointment with you.” I got ready to hang up on Dr. Bridgeton, despite his lovely voice, but his response brought me up short.
“Oh, we definitely have an appointment, Ms. Johnson. And it’s right now.” And then there was a knock on my door.
(This post is part of the 500 Words short story project.)
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