16 Signs That We Are In Love.

SIXTEEN:

When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.
FIFTEEN:
You read their Texts and Ims Over and over again.

FOURTEEN:
You walk really slow when you're with them.
THIRTEEN:
You feel shy whenever they're around.
ELEVEN:
When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time.

TEN:
You smile when you hear their voice.
NINE:
When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her.
EIGHT:
You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.
SEVEN:
They're all you think about.
SIX:
You get high just from their scent.
FIVE:
You relize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.
FOUR:
You would do anything for them, just to see them.
THREE:
While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.
TWO:
You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number twelve was missing.
ONE:
You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

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I'm in looovvveeee!! It's a happy feeling :)

Tagged!!

I'm very sorry ye Tanjung.. Terlmbt pule.

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR
a)iphone
b)ticket free pegi balik mesia
c)oven
d)wide angle lens
e)coolest mixer

LIST OUT THE REASONS FOR YOUR CHOICE
a)cool gadget
b)nak balik!!!!!
c)so that i could bake all i want
d)senang nk ambik family picture akan dtg :p
e)see c.

THE PERSON WHO TAG-ED YOU IS: the new-est member of the suku abad club- miss tanj :)


5 IMPRESSION OF HIM/HER:
ceria, full of passion, wanita berdikari :p, a friend that you dont want to lose and thoughtful.

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU: Johnny's!

MOST LOVED INVENTION (does not need to be technologically advanced): phone

WHAT DO YOU DESPISE THE MOST: the other

PEOPLE YOU WANNA TAG : k.inn, ibu emir, arfah(missing you), nena

30 minutes

I usually started my day off with reading not story books, but more to self-help books. It is good to get the brain to start working early in the morning. Well, okay, not that morning, but that's mostly how i spent my mornings in the train. 30 minutes of reading something.( Except for the times when i feel so tired und just stare blankly at the window)

Previously, i read story books. The thing about story books are they are hard to put down. I found myself wanting to read more and more, i read pages after pages. I dreaded to put the book down when the 30 minutes ended. As a result, I couldnt really concentrate on my work (the story keep playing in my mind although) and the feeling to finish the book is there and quite strong throughout the day. Not that i couldn't really concentrate on my work, but which is more relaxing?

Self-help books are better. The brain have to work more on understanding, and a 30-minutes-input is enough.I can ponder all i want about the point i've read, and probably i could put it into use when i am working. Can anyone please suggest book(s) that you think that is good; self-help, motivation etc etc. Thank you!

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I completely salute my sisters. They are great people, they have achieved great things and they are just great! I on the other hand, subconciously put myself on a limit. It's like all these great things are behind a door and all these years, i have avoided to even grab the handle. Limitations. Things i can't do or won't do, things that i thought that are beyond my limit. Although sometimes there are times where mini-me wanted to open that door and explore. But the Other kept telling me that is safer not to open it. To be in this side of the door.

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There were times when i feel that my pride is wounded. Fullstop.

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En. Apad, thanks for always being there (sbb cannot here)for me. I appreciate you and your effort to make this long-distance relationship work. It's more hard work now but we'll get through okay! ich liebe dich! :p

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Oh my dear friends, where are you. Send me an email ke about what you are doing, how you've been doing?I really really miss you guys. A comment here also will do. :)

p/s: i have a lot in my mind, haven't i?

Kvetch.

I know that I kvetch almost about everything.

I dont even know how to say kvetch, but i do know that i kvetched occasionally, well okay, most of the time.

Are you a kvetch?

The Other

There are many things I did, that in a split second I come to regret the actions I took, the thoughts I thought and the things I said. I don't like who i am becoming.

The battle between my heart and my conscience happens every single day. I’m living not as me but in the role of the Other. The Other critizes me on my every action, thoughts. She tells me what to do, be very much concern with what people may think of me, making up excuses to justify whatever wrong it told me to do and the worst part telling me that no matter what I do or did, that I am not good enough.

How long until I'll able to control the Other and really cast it out. It doesn’t take a just an hour or a day, but it could take months. I really need to do this, for me. I don’t want the Other to control me. Then again, as i am writing this, she's right here beside me.

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Saya mau pulang…

Kebetulan

Just when i feel tertekan sbb program ini, i read this on Friendster.

.Horoscope for today.

The Bottom Line

Through trial and error, you'll eventually perfect your technique. Just keep going.(Just the motivation i needed)

In Detail
This is going to feel like a long, slow day(it is the least productive day) -- but it is also a day that offers you plenty of time to experiment with new ways of doing things. Acting differently than you normally do might put a few people on edge, but don't let that stop you. When you're trying to figure out who you are, you cannot be held back by who other people think you are. You have to forge your own way in life, so why not start now? After all, you're not getting any younger!(<---dang!)

To CANON SLR users!!

Anyone interested in buying NEW lenses and accessories (flash, battery etc etc), contact me!
Prices are really cheap compared to the shop!! Urusan dlm Ringgit Malaysia :)

p/s: Sampai-sampaikan eh kat member2 lain :)

Freecell

Ingatkan pekerja2 je main freecell bile bosan, rupanya boss pun sama. Lucky my camera phone tak de la power mana, kalau tak da curi2 ambik gambar boss. :P

On the other hand, saya selsema+batuk. Demam raya ni. Sakan sgt beraya ari tu,smpi penat..last2 demam. At work kept sneezing and coughing.

McD baru bukak kat stadtmitte ni nnt. Yeay! leh mkn sundae bile balik keja nnt (bile da baik batuk ye)

Nak lens....

Raya@Offenburg

Selamat Hari Raya!!!
Maaf Zahir & Batin!

1 Syawal@Saarbruecken

Thanks to org2 Saar, my first Syawal was interesting!! Terima kasih ye kawan2.

Selamat Hari Raya!

Gambar2 masa pegi Frankfurt

Ntah ler..

Mixed emotions. Dont really know what to feel, or to express how i feel.

I want to be passionate about something, anything..

Ramadhan is ending..my 4th 1 Syawal here.

Ntah ler..need to take a breather.

Apad

tgh buat apa tu?

B.l.i.s.s

21st September 2007

I was on the train, on my way to Riegel (its the name of the place that i'll be doing my thesis starting this October). I was looking outside when i had this urge to write. I think the word that suited my feeling at that time is bliss. The weather was getting colder, autumn is just around the corner. Truth was i havent been outside the house for a few days. No wonder that i'm loving the day out.

I saw green plantation.
After the green came brownish yellow.
The corns stems were welcoming autumn.
I saw the bright blue sky.
The sun was shining rather brightly despite the cold weather.
I saw people walking their dogs.
Some were walking leisurely, some were resting.
Others jogged.
While the rest were rushing to work.
I love this kind of feeling.
It really was bliss.

Ignorance isnt bliss..

The only feeling that i didnt like at that time was, i felt heavy.
Huh! Need to exercise!

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On the other hand, thank you Tanjung and Ainur for calling. You guys are always in my heart!love you!

Late sleeper

So here i am, at 3.30 am, on my bed, blogging.

Tried sleeping from 1 am, but no luck with that.

Orang lain sume dah tido..

Let's see..owhh..Ramadhan is coming.

Selamat Berpuasa!!

Friend

from "Like Flowing River" by Paulo Coelho

One morning, a Mongol warrior, Genghis Khan, and his court went hunting. His companions carried bows and arrows, but Genghis Khan carried on his arm his favourite falcon, which was better and surer than any arrow, because it could fly up into the skies and see everything that a human being could not.

However, despite the group's enthusiastic efforts, they found nothing. Disappointed, Genghis Khan returned to the encampment and in order not to take out his frustation on his companions, he left the rest of the party and rode on alone. They had stayed in the forest for longer than expected, and Khan was desperately tired and thirsty. In the summer heat, all the streams had dried up and he could find nothing to drink. Then, to his amazement, he saw a thread of water flowing from a rock just in front of him.

He removed the falcon from his arm, and took out the silver cup which he always carried with him. It was very slow to fill and, just as he was about to raise it to his lips, the falcon flew up, plucked the cup from his hands, and dashed it to the ground.

Genghis Khan was furious, but then the falcon was his favourite, and perhaps it, too, was thirsty. He picked the cup, cleaned off the dirt, and filled it again. When the cup was only half-empty this time, the falcon again attacked it, spilling the water.

Genghis Khan adored this bird, but he knew that he could not, under any circumstances, allow such disrespect; someone might be watching this scene from afar and later on, would tell his warriors that the great conquerer was incapable of taming a mere bird.

This tie, he drew his sword, picked up the cup and refilled it, keping one eye on the stream and on the other on the falcon As soon as he had enough water in the cup and was ready to drink, the falcon again took flight and flew towards him. Khan, with one thrust, pierced the bird's breast.

The thread of water, however had dried up; but Khan, determined now to find something to drink, climbed the rock in search of the spring. To his surprise, there really was a pool of water and, in the middle of it, dead, lay one of the most poisonous snakes in the region. If he had drunk the water, he too, would have died.

Khan returned to camp with the dead falcon in is arms. He ordered a hold figurine of the bird to be made and on one of the wings, he engraved:

Even when a friend does something you do not like,
he continues to be your friend.

And on the other wing, he had these words engraved:

Any action commited in anger is an action doomed to failure.


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Me write:
We always think that our action is right and we are always the victim. Seldom we think about other people, whether their laughter is a way for conceiling their pain. Or their solitude is just a way of expressing stubborness. People cannot read other's mind, nor we are always right in interpreting their body languange. We are not mind readers.

That's why in friendship, its important for you to accept your friend as they are. Simply assuming something is not good enough. When i see my friends cried, i would let them be, let them have their own time first before asking what had happened. Then, when they are more open to share, i am all ears. That's my way, unless they had come to me first, that's a different case. If my friend wants to assume that i dont want calm her, i cannot do anything but just hope that she'll understand my way of handling things. If not, then, i guess we didnt understand each other enough as if i did explain it to them, she wouldnt believe it anyways. As for me, I had assumed too much, i have learned that the hard way for some time now and i really hope i have learned my lesson.

B-Day, P-Day, Today

B-Day.

I guess this is my very first birthday that i celebrated with my Offenburg family. The previous one was only with Lee and a couple of his friends, so count that one out..hehe. As to include more ppl, we celebrated early on the 14th. The were lasagne, pizzas and apple pies, plus watermelon. Soundsfew but our stomachs were full by the 2nd slice of pizza and one piece(??) of lasagne. I cooked! :p

Presents were an album from Najib and Ain, a tunic top (which Aju thinks is pretty) from Nora and a travel iron from Aida, Tanty and Fatma. Ouh..I got to even blow candles too that night. Cheese cake lagi tu. Suku abad dah. Then the allergie to i-dont-know-what under my eyes helped adding more wrinkles. Heh! Hilang la cepat2.

On the 17th, pegi makan dekat kedai India, Sereena Palace. The food there were delicious!! Nyum. Planning to go there again for buka puasa next month or is it farewell?


P-Day.



I made this up. Hehe. Helped painting two rooms at the former hostel. Tanty's rooms was an easy task as it was painted last year, before i moved here. Aida's room had holes to cover and residues of glue on the wall. We have to paint it with two layer. My jeans and shirt are still smudged by paint as well as my muka and tangan...hee hee. I'm using that pair next year to paint my current room pulak. While cycling back home I feel like tukang cat baru balik kerja. :p


Today

Pretty much i have done nothing. Sat in front or my laptop all day, or was it the laptop sat on me. Changed the template of my blog. Download Bleach and Naruto (Veoh deleted the ones in my computer). Pagi td abgeben Fatma's room then signed the form for Aida and after that nada! Will however help Tanty and Aida to move their things. Kekurangan kaki tangan utk mengangkat barang. Most of the guys are in Malaysia for summer break. Go Go Girls!!


Btw, I found this while sorting the papers/ handouts yg belambak tapi tak digunakan. Apad's creative work. 5 years ago..kawan je :p

I am the point where..

I realise that i should go forward and not stuck in a place but i didnt do anything about it. I havent plan anything, yet. I am now in a "pause"-mode , i'll push the play button when i think i'm ready. Ready means : settled for next semester.

Dont mind me. I just a need a place to bebel.

Of all the rooms...

why la u guys are having party in the next one to mine!! If lagu sedap tu ok la jugak. Lagu2 disco, lagu german tak sedap..sigh~

i hate these guys!

It's over

Yup. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows is the last book. It took me 3 days to finish the book (i dont know exactly how many hours i've spent on the book but i managed to do some cookings, gossipings, slept for hours, went to the stadt, and etc etc in betweens), but yes, i kind of read rather slow these days.

And i LOVE the book. Tak kisah org lain nk ckp apa. It gave me the same feeling when i read the 1st,2nd and 3rd book years back. I was trying my best not to peek at the next page each time i picked up the book to continue reading, or to get a hint of what's next. And when i was reading the best part of the book, i had to use a card to stop me from reading too quickly (guna kad tu mcm pembaris) and not to miss any line. I was screaming, laughing, feeling excited and i almost cried when a few characters died. I dont remember when was the last time i read the book like that. (It's quite a different feeling when reading PS I love you though) Overall, it was for me an enjoyable book.

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Exams. I've passed one paper out of 3 that i've written this semester. Kind of glad because truthfully my head almost pecah because i tried to memorise apa yg dibelajar 2 days before the exam. Cikgu baik tu. Waiting for the next 2. Hopefully not so bad.

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Dad's in London now, for the World Jamboree. Too bad i dont know what's his plans will be from 6th to 10th August as by that time the Jamboree da abes da pun. I wish i could see him, now that i'm not going home for summer. Yes, i am very much feeling homesick right now. I miss Dad, Mom, Tok Mak, Olie, Inn, Cin and Aju not forgetting Apad. I miss the cousins, the uncles, the aunties, the friends..huuu

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The gathering in Stuttgart was fun. The not-so-new newly weds Kia&Azfar were there, Sheena, Intan, Auni, Has(+1) and her husband were there as well. Some of the guys made a slideshow of pictures when we first arrived here, our first snow, the places we've visited, the sports we played.Every one laughed, there were some ooohs, and the part where everyone was laughing so much was the last picture. Hehe. He turned pink when it came up..:p

It has been 4 years. And i am almost at the end. A new beginning will come.

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Not forgetting Miss Elaiza Shahida, congratulations on your engagement. The 2nd one after Yanty. Bet you'll look pretty :)

Something that i wanted to do

See it for yourselves:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/fadhila


I havent done any editing on the pics, sbb tak reti lagi nk guna photoshop :p . Will learn that later. It's on the "Things-I-want-to-do" list.


Hopefully by time, i'll learn much more.

Congrats!! and Good Luck!!

To the newly grads - Congrats!!!

To the ones who have exams - Good Luck!!!

Cold Summer

Its totally different from what i have imagined. I imagined that it was going to be the hottest summer, but it rained almost every day. so there is no need to keep all the sweaters or jackets away cause i'll be needing it. On the bright side, its better to have the rain rather than hot weather yang terik and you'll come all sweaty.

Aju is planning to tour Europe. But she havent make the real plan yet. You better hurry cik mek! Its not getting cheaper by the day tau. Italy and Spain sound nice, since sana panas. German sejuk! Datang sini masak utk saya ye. Hehe.

Nothing else is new. Exam will be on th 12th July. My very last important paper. The others are electives. Hope i'll make it in time to do all the revision by next week. I started out a bit late than i supposed to. Pening kepala nk ingat semua benda balik.

Okay. Headache.

Sleeping! Tata people!

Testing..

Okay, when i do have the lust to cook, i'll try to cook something new. Mengikut resipi yg dicilok dr internet, ni nama dia Cordon Bleu. Kira ok la ni. Boleh try lg next time. Note to myself : dont blender the potato!

selepas dibakar

ready to be eaten!

God Must Be Crazy

I think dad used to rent that video. Dad rented lots of videos when we were kids and we often watched it together. Pity i couldnt remember much on the videos that we watched.

Back to the film. I didnt remember liking the tribe before but i do now, although their way of life is just fictional. The Bushmen of Kalahari. They led a very simple life, where children created their own games, men and women lived peacefully. They didnt know what jealousy is and believed that every thing that God had sent to them are good things.

When Xi found an empty coke bottle thrown off an airplane, he thought God had sent them another good thing. They found many use for the bottle as it has a smooth surface, as clear as the water and as hard as a rock. They could even make sounds with the bottle. One single bottle of coke, which had suddenly became everyone's need. That's when it's all started. They didnt like sharing the bottle and they began to fight over it. When the other party was hurt, they quickly realised that the feeling that they had was wrong.

They gathered by the fire at night. Every one was very sad and blamed what had happened on the bottle. They called the bottle "the evil thing". I like how they regretted and felt ashamed when they fought over the bottle. They dont like the feelings like envy, hatred and violance ruined their peaceful life.They wondered why God had sent them this "evil thing". And so they decided to throw the bottle at the end of the world, although they dont even know where the end of the world is and how long to get there.

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It is the same with us really. God has given us both good and bad things. We have the opportunity to choose between both, even we did make the wrong decision/choice, we still can make it right again making the right one. The Bushmen had the courage to throw away the bad thing that came into their life, even it is at the end at world, no one knows its whereabout or what awaits them along the journey there. I hope i have the same courage. Courage to change, courage to face what awaits me in the future and courage to accept my mistakes and admit they are wrong.

PS: I write this blog mainly to improve my English and i am not good at expressing myself with words. Any corrections, please do not segan2 to betulkan. Am willing to learn. :) Thank you!

Spain Part 3 - Cordoba

This is the Mezquita, Spanish for Mosque. It was at one time the second largest mosque in the world in Cordoba and is now a Roman Catholic cathedral. When i first read about Mezquita from the net, i thought only some part has been turned into the Church and the rest was remained as it is. But i was wrong. It was completely turned into a church.

Some of the remaining walls from the former mosque. To me, it is a beauty.

Beauty.

Our next place to visit is the Medina Al-Zahara. Popular legend holds that the Caliph,Abd al-Rahman III, named al-Zahra, or Azahara, after his favorite concubine, and that a statue of a woman stood over the entrance (if it was at the entrance, it is no longer there now because only 10% of its extension, is visible). Others, imagining his demanding lover, say that he built this new city just to please her. The truth, however, has more to do with politics than love. Abd al-Rahman III ordered the construction of this city at a time when he had just finished consolidating his political power in the Iberian Peninsula and was entering into conflict with the Fatimid (Shi'ah) dynasty for the control of North Africa. source - wikipedia.com

See how small the clouds were. That day was hot! Nasib baik tak itam!

Fatma tried taking a picture of me in this particular building. She managed to capture only my sunglasses (Head with no nose nor mouth, only the sunglasses).LOL!

These walls are falling apart. But my guess is they are going to restore this place later.


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Cordoba is the last city that we visited in Spain. One thing i learned that the Spanish people wont bother talking to you in English even you are a tourist. They'll speak in Spanish and expect we to understand. What an experience! One sentence that contains Spanish, German, English and Malay is " Cico hat a kereta!" (Cico is guy is Spanish, hat = has).

And since it was a long way back to Strasbourg (a city in France 40 mins away from Offenburg), we stayed one night at Marseille, France and continued the next day. Unfortunately in Marseille, it rained. Sight seeing at Marseille was cancelled and we ended up eating lunch and buying dinner instead. Then, the long drive back to Strasbourg. We couldnt make it on time to catch the last train back to Offenburg (at 12 midnight), so we kept stopping at R&R for refreshments and of course - toilet! Kematu duduk dlm kereta lama2. Siap bukak cerita hantu. Najib had the most collection of ghost stories, the real ones i tell you. The one that his aunt experienced. I still remember the one that he told us about a makcik at R&R Ayer Keroh's prayer room. Spooky! Will remind myself not to stop at that R&R.

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On the other hand, i am trying to find a topic and place for my final year thesis. Been sending out resumes and hopefully someone will think my resume is interesting enough and hire me. Doa-doakan that i'll find a place soon ya! Exam is coming up in a month. And will hopefully go cherry picking again this Saturday! Yeay!

To Mr Apad, thank you for coming to BP eventhough i'm here. :) Love you.

Spart Part 2 - Granada

After Barcelona, we headed down to Granada, one of the important city in Andalusia. Here is where Al- Hambra lies. It was a long ride to Granada from Barcelona but i must say, it was all worth it.

The entrance to Al- Hambra

The Alcazar or in arabic Al-Kasbah (meaning walled fortification in a city)

View of Granada from on top of the Alcazar.

The Nasrid Palace. I must say beautiful.. and no matter how hot the day was, inside of the building was cool, mcm ada air-cond.

And not forgetting, the famous Spanish Paella. It tastes like nasi goreng. I bet the Spanish will be crying when they eat our nasi goreng at the stalls :p.