BiJi. BiJi. BiJi. Guwa biji bebeno. Pehe dop?

Updated status on Facebook:



   Dearest mama, guess what? Teachers' Day dah dekattt! I hope you're here to witness this. Heee. Call ma sbb nak cerita excited sambut Hari Guru first time nieee. AS A TEACHER! HOW COOL IS THAT?! Heeeeeeeeee. Dear God, because of You... I'm smiling. Alhamdulillah. Hoping I get to finish those secretarial work by tomorrow or hm..., next week. Kinda been working 7 days a week for a few months now. Who say teachers work half day only maa? Back at 3, 4, 5 and sometimes at 6. At home, continue working. Punch in at 7:15 in the morning regardless the total hours. *Yawnnn* OT? What's that? Tak wujud dalam kamus seorang guru. Not complaining (tipuuuu jee!!! hee. but yeah, not complaining that much lah :~x ) Anddd very happy I don't get that many chance to sleep after Asar. :~D Am still very new to teaching. Tak cukup setahun lagi pun. Still a lot heading my way and am ready to learn! I smile most of the time (in and out of the school compound), I make friends with the children, we joke around like buddies do, I am surrounded with very helpful and supportive colleagues and loved ones... I just can't ask for anything more, can I? I wonder how my friends, in this same great profession, scattered all over Malaysia, are doing :~))) Wishing my dear friends who are teachers too, a VERY HAPPY VERY HAPPY VERY HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! Heee. An early HTD wish. How much longer will I stay a teacher? Wallahualam. Good night!

But then... I realize:

- This is too personal to be placed on Facebook.

- It will be on the News Feed. Macam menyemak jeee status pepanjang camnie kat NF orang padahal takdak kaitan dengan depa pun. Sian pulop.

- Nobody cares anyway. Duuuhhh.

So, I decided to move it here. Haha. Why? Because, this is my own personal space. Only those who care enough will read this. People choose to click or visit blogs but on FB's NF, everything's stuck there even when people tak nak tengok pun. Heee. So, here it is lah kan. Pap! Terpampang di blog ini. Gosh, I miss her. Dah tak balik rumah lama dah nie padahal dulu, tiap minggu balik. Okay. Dah taburkan  muntahkan luahkan isi hati kat sini. Boleh tdoq dah. Hehe. Guten nacht!  

Maafkan patik, gambar tidak memberangsangkan.
Sedang kejar masa nie.  *run chase time*
k lame.

In case you don't understand the title of this post disebabkan penggunaan bahasa berkarat, it's "Busy. Busy. Busy. Very busy. Do you understand?" Taa~

Update:

- Busyyyyyyyy!

- Despite the busyness, I still try to make time for people (tak semua lah sbb x semua schedule free sama).

- Butttt, tu lah. Kalau ada orang tgk kita happy sikit, keluarlah ayat, "Eh, dia macam x de kje je.",  "Eeee, senangnyaa jadi cikgu." ... dan bermacam lagi lah. Haha. Tolak tepi semua itu dan terus pekakkan diri. Cobaaannnn. 

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 3:45AM (GMT +08:00):.

Fancy juxtapositioning?

Have been replaying two songs on my playlist for a day:

Space-Bound - Eminem

CaliforniaKing Bed -Rihanna

Proximately faraway...

Kekacakan baru bangun tidur :~)
#random

Home alone...

Waiting for the light  at the end of the tunnel right in the face..

Juxtaposition much?

Updates:

- I'm work bound at the moment.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 05.15pm:. 

*Ya Allah!!! Tak sedar dah masuk Maghrib.20 minit yang lalu. Boleh berbuka puasa! Alhamdulillah~~~ :~)))

This explains why I was late...

My sister terasa with me because I didn't wish her on her birthday. She thought I forgot. But no, I was working on this. Hope that she'll love it. Spent a few days on this. I'm a slow worker. *Yawn...

Self-update:

- Hmmm.

- Goodnight.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at  02.09pm:.

Saya pandai tanak nasi!

THIS WAS POSTED A FEW WEEKS AGO. I DON'T KNOW HOW ON EARTH IT STATES IT'S PUBLISHED 31ST MAY 2011.

Kagum tak dengan headline nie? Kagum tak? Kagum tak?!

WOAH! EXCITED EXCITED EXCITED!!! I just managed to cook rice!!! Woahhhh~!!! Before this, I did this in Malaysia je but since February 2010, I've never bought any rice to cook sebab tak makan nasi sangat here. Kalau beli pun, instant je. Heee. So, I never had the chance to cook the rice on my own. But just now, I just felt the urge to do it and I did it! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!

Nasi sudah masak.

FIRST ATTEMPT: WIN!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!

DAH TAU MASAK NASI,

DAH BOLEH KAHWIN!

ABAH, SAYA MAU KAHWIN?

HEEEEEEE~

Update tentang diri:

- Everyone's sleeping already. Hmmm.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 0126am:.

Clumsiness led to frustration.

Struggling... Struggling... Struggling. And YAY! A video is made within 5 hours. And before that, I was planning on what to do for my Microteaching Presentation. After getting the suggestion from FiZi, to make a feart-shaped origami, I was thinking of ways how to make it more creative and engaging for the learners. And I came up with this video. Well, it's not much since I only took a few hours to do it but this is what happens when you take your work to the eleventh hour.

Normally, my classmates created power point presentations but I decided to make this video since PP usually takes a lot more of my time and also, since my presentation is the last for this semester, I wanted to do something different. 

Butttt. During the presentation, I did not know what went wrong with the sound system and yes, the whole class watched without any sound. I was totally frustrated throughout the presentation but I don't know who's at fault. Not that I was trying to blame anyone but I just couldn't see what went wrong back then!

My frustration turned into anger and disappointment and sadness and I don't know what else to describe it when.... The moment I sat at my seat, I saw my volume is muted. MUTED. YES. MUTED. Oh My God...

Balik tu menangis. Entah apa-apa lah kan... Why am I so clumsy?

CONGRATULATIONS BARCA ON YOUR WINNING! :~)))

Worth watching and lupakan assignment sebentar. Heee.

Self-update:

- Submissions for next week:

• A 3000-word essay. (Monday)
• A 1500-word essay. (Thursday)
• A 1000-word reflection. (Wednesday)
• A poster.

-Can I make it on time? InsyaAllah... Positif sudaaa.

- I need to sleep! Tak tidur lagi nieh.

-Oh, saya mengidam nasi lemak. Saya sanggup beli AUD5. Masakkan. Please? :~(

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 10.39am:.

Hello family!

After not calling home for more than 2 weeks, (excluding Skype calls)... I received 4 wonderful news from abah.

1. Elli just placed herself in Institut Perguruan Bahasa Antarabangsa (IPBA) for her TESL course (macam saya!) Thank you everyone for making this possible. Elli, I love you :~))) (If you read this, takyah nak perasan sangat okayh!)

2. Ilya is at home in Shah Alam! Weee. Orang Ireland balik tanah air!

3. Abah's CML contract with someone is at the final stage of being approved.

4. Zuhairy has owned a car.

Bb and Zayyani...? Well, am sure they're up to something. However...

...abah said that he's sleepy and want to get some sleep. So, tak mau lah tanya lebih-lebih. He needs to get some rest. Oops! Sorry abah for disturbing your sleeping process. Heee. And Ilya is downstairs washing the dishes. Oh! Having Ilya at home means having someone to regularly cook the meals for the family. Unlike when I'm back home dulu. Haha. Sorry dear family.

Dari semakin hilang semangat menuntut ilmu di negara orang...

...terus menjadi gigih belajar pabila mendengar berita gembira!

Alhamdulillah.

Owh yess. And thanx FiZi for the suggestions on what I should do for my microteaching. Although you didn't really know the context and have no idea of what this is... You came up with some brilliant ideas. Thank you.

Self-update:

- And... Back to the assignments!

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 0355pm:.

How to make...

Today, I'm gonna teach you how to make Oreo Cheesecake! Fuiyooooo! Hebat kannn. Please don't kill me by the end of the lesson. Heeeeeeee. Peace yawww! v(^_^)v

Firstly, prepare the needed ingredients.

Secondly, (after asking for a person to mix the ingredients and do whatever necessary),
you go and jilat jilat the leftovers.

Then, stare ate the cake till it freaks out and bake itself.

Finally, enjoy the cake. Phewww!

There you go. A yummy Oreo Cheesecake made by Mira! (and I). Heee. 

Update tentang diri:

- Senyum jom. Heeeeeee :~DDD

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 0731am:.

Are you blinded... Like me? Have you ever really...

Yes, yes. I've promised not to blog till I've finished my assignment. Guess what? They're not finished. Yeah. You scored that one.

I've been kinda depressed and sad for the past few days. And it's mainly because everyone's celebrating Mother's Day. Yea yea... I was full of envy. I'm sorry dear readers who celebrated Mother's Day. Anyway, while I was in my gloomy mode, I had a fight with FiZi. Biasalah tu... Adat bercinta kata orang. But that didn't affect my feelings sangat but the thought of everywhere people are celebrating their mums, that made feel indifferent. Hmmm. Enough about that. Mother's Day is over anyway. Oh, btw, I bought a mug that has this writing on it. Heee. InsyaAllah kalau ingat, I'll post the picture nanti.

Minus the ".:ilyanafauzy:. "of course. Heee

Let's move on to another story. Because I've been crying hard for the past three nights thinking about mummy. (That explains the question people kept asking me, why do my eyes look different/sembab/bengkak/swollen semenjak dua menjak nie.) Sorry mummy. I've been praying for you a lot too despite the tears. Trust me. I do. Hmmm.

BUT REALLY, IF YOU WANNA BLOG ABOUT MOTHER'S DAY, CHANGE YOUR PROFILE PICTURES TO A PICTURE OF YOUR MOTHER, DO TWEETS ON YOUR MOTHER, PUT FACEBOOK STATUSES ABOUT YOUR MOTHER AND SO ON... I really don't mind. It's just that these feelings saja nak carik gaduh dalam diri. Heeee. It's an inner thing. Nothing to do with any of you. I'm happy to see you guys happy ngan mama korang. Seriously.

Okay, the next story is what I just learned  in a relationship. We feel that we love someone. Our spouse, our partner, our friends, our sisters, brothers. And that's okay. That's normal. But try to rethink and reflect, was it too much? Probably a little too much (I know I did) and we don't get to realize it before it's too late (Sometimes, we might think it's too late but better keep trying than just giving up, surrendering). We're blinded by this thing we call love when our partner sees it as invading their privacy. It only dawns upon us when that someone tells us that he/she needs some space to be on their own. It's not our fault though, we're blinded, remember? It's just that, if we truly love someone, we should be able to understand their needs. The need to have their own time with friends and family and to be on their own. A time when you're not in the frame. And that doesn't mean they don't love you, they don't miss you, or they don't think of you. Well, they do. You just have to take a step back and let him/her breath. And that's when we think that truth hurts when it's actually we ourselves didn't see the signs before, we didn't see their needs, we didn't fulfill theirs when they have actually fulfilled ours, which is to be by our side all the time or whatever you have in mind. So, I just would like you guys and girls out there to hear this song, to really hear it, and to try your best to read in between the lines. If you ever had any fights with your loved ones, think of the wonderful things they've done for you. It sure helps. A lot. But when the love is no longer there, maybe you have to wake up and face the truth; there is no love after all.

Thanks for making me see love from a broader perspective.

InsyaAllah I'll be a better person in the future. InsyaAllah.

Here's the lyrics. You can download the song at Mediafire.

Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman

by Bryan Adams

To really love a woman
To understand her - you gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought - see every dream
N' give her wings - if she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman then tell her
that she's really wanted
When you love a woman then tell her that she's the one
'cause she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
- really really ever loved a woman?

To really love a woman
Let her hold you -
till you know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her - really taste her
Till you can feel her in your blood
N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
then tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman then tell her that she's the one
'cause she needs somebody to tell her
that you'll always be together
So tell me have you ever really -
really really ever loved a woman?

You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
A little tenderness - you gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...

Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman
When you love a woman you tell her
that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
- really really ever loved a woman?

Just tell me have you ever really,
really, really, ever loved a woman? You got to tell me
Just tell me have you ever really,
really, really, ever loved a woman?

Source: www.sing365.com

(~: Finally, a shoutout to all great mothers out there,

Happy Mother's Day.

And to all sons and daughters of these beautiful mothers and wonderful fathers, shower you parents with love and affection, just the way they showered you with theirs while growing you up. :~)

Update tentang diri:

- Okay. Assignment. Again.

- Sorry if any of my words offended you guys.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 1009am:.

Earth Hour and jealousy and... YIKES~!!

Clock shows 8.30pm. This conversation takes place.

Roommate: Aza, do you need the lights?

Me           : Eh, nope. Why?

Roommate: Nah... Just wanna switch it off.

Me           :  (Looks at the lappy's clock)

                   Owh! Earth hour. Starts at 8.30 ey?

Roommate: Yup.

I look somewhat handsome in the dark! Heee

(Then, go tweet tweet on twitter...)

See Ikhwan Hafidz posts this on twitter ""best gila main switch tutup lampu kat youtube ahaha"" and he says that's only for today since it's the Earth Hour day. And so, I go YouTubing and play the switch as well. Hee. Thanx Wan for the info!

When the lights are on...

And when you switch off the lights

by clicking the switch button at the top left corner, next to the title.

(Please click picture above for better view)

So, if you haven't played with the switch, go lah switch it on off on off on off. Once in a year okay! Grab this opportunity. Haha.

Update tentang diri:

- Wuu. Saya takut gelap. But since I'm an environMENTAList, what's wrong with being in the dark for an hour kan? :~)

- Skyping with little sister who just got back from her Eurotrip. Wuuu. JEALOUS LOT LOT ONEEE.!

Little sis and younger sis

with me in between

♥

.:ilyana fauzy signing off at 2050:.

!!!!!!OMG!!!!!!

Wait, wait..!

BULU BULUUUUU~!!!

Okay. Something just happened!!! BULU BULUUUUU~!!! RUNNNN~!

Just when I was about to publish this post, something wriggled at the bottom corner of my laptop. OMG OMG OMG. What's that?! I freaked out...! "LIPAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I screamed and shouted at Farah that instance to switch on the lights. (Sorry Farah for ruining your Earth Hour. Wuuu).

Once the room was filled with lights, I said, "There!!! The lipan! Takut Farah...!" Farah rushed over and she said... "Laaaaa. Ingatkan nampak hantu. Ulat bulu rupanya... Our house was attacked by this thing la last year..." Okay. Malu di situ tatau beza ulat bulu dan lipan. Tapi kan, I've seen ulat bulu before and they looked different. Wuuu. Mata saya tabetol ke? Ulat bulu banyak jenis kot. Tapi kan, saya tak pernah tengok lipan. Camna saya tau rupa lipan tu pun saya tatau.

Anyway, let me show you guys that thing. Enjoy the pictures!

Urghhh~!

Euwwww~!

Yuckieeee~!!!!!!

Where the so-called lipan meets its tragic end.
RIP

The moral of the story, don't come and bother me or else, you'll end up in the bowl. Huahuahua.

Update tentang diri:

- Takut, geli, teringat ular, waaa! Nak nanges :"~(

- That thing reminds me of a snake. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~!!!

(This post mengantoikan diri bahawa laptop saya tidak di switch off power source nya.)

.:ilyana fauzy signing off, again, at 2129:.

(Another minute, the Earth Hour will be over but I ruined it for about 5 minutes. Haih.)

Minesweeper.

Back to the 90s.

Muehehe. Ever played this game before? I've known this game since I first tengok my dad's PC in the 90s. My siblings and I tried hard in understanding the game but we gave up after a number of tries... Haha.

2010.

I was immersed in my assignments... Lots and lotsa assignments waiting for me to finish them up. Tiba tiba... adalah sorang hamba Allah nie... Having a Window switched to Minesweeper. Woahhh~! That is soooo 90s! But tanak lah bising kan because I also dunno how to play it. As I concentrated on how he played the game... I was getting more into it... And so, I asked him to teach me how to play... It resulted in me getting only passes for both subjects that I delayed (was due more than a week) sending in... just because of this game! Adoiiii! I was addicted to it! (Gila jakun bila 2010 baru tau how to play this!)

While waiting for my last minute Ebay bid pun boleh.... Heee

Feel annoyed gila when the few last ones, I don't manage to win the game, especially when it's just the random one. Like this one...

Haiyaaa. But thank God I won this one. Weeee~!!!

I won!

Weeee~!!!

It's been a year since I first used Ebay. Happy Birthday Ilyana's Ebay! :~)

Homesick much?

I guess I miss home more than I thought I do :"~( Nanges dah lebih dari the number of days spent in Aussie dah nieh. Aiyaaa. No no. Not a good sign. Not a good sign. Definitely not a good sign.

BB, Ilya, Happy Birthday dear siblings. I love the both of you. Wanted to post something on you two but I saved it in the draft first. Will post it later. Missing everyone at home.

Farah, Jiha, Iwa.... heee. Makin rindu rumah lah. How aaa...? Maybe it'll get better in time. Heee. Thanx cz ada ngan saya kat sini walaupun not all the time.

Hopefully this will be the last post berunsur homesick. Never been this way before. Usually I'll get over it within minutes or hours after not seeing them. Haha. Something triggered this feelings. O yes, something did...

Oh, btw friends, sorry if I'm not really being my usual self this week. Pardon me please. Thanx :~)

Kau ingat kau cantik?!

"Wah! Cantiknya aku!" Hatiku berbunga riang pabila memandang cermin pada pagi itu... Aku terfikir... Apsal kan, masa baru bangun tidur jugak laaa aku rasa aku cantik. Tapi bila orang puji aku cantik, aku rasa macam diorang menipu, perli aku... Langkahku pantas menuju ke bilik, hentakan kakiku bertambah kuat. Aku tidak suka akan diri aku. Mataku kutumpukan ke cermin besar di dalam bilik itu,  ibarat harimau merenung mangsanya dan aku separa menjerit terhadap refleksi aku bagaikan cermin itu mempunyai telinga untuk mendengar, memiliki hati dan perasaan seperti hidupan lain, aku seakan-akan berzikir, "Kau buruk. Kau buruk. Kau buruk. Kau buruk. Kau buruk. Kau buruk. Kau buruk. Kau buruk. Kau buruk. Kau buruk. Kau buruk. Kau bu..." Sehinggalah kaki aku kebas disebabkan terlalu lama berdiri mengadap manusia yang semakin sukar kufahami di dalam objek legap di hadapanku. Terduduk termenung aku di situ, lalu aku beristighfar dan nafas ditarik sedalam-dalamnya. Sambil nafasku masih ditahan, bibirku mengucapkan, "Ya Allah, ampunkan dosa aku mengutuk ciptaan Kau. Ampunkan dosa aku mengutuk makhluk Kau. Ampunkan dosa aku di atas segala-galanya. Ampunkan aku..." Dan aku kembali bersyukur di atas anugerahnya dan tubuh yang serba lengkap ini. Terima kasih di atas kesempurnaan ini. Alhamdulillah.

Ohhhh~! Now I know why I love taking pictures of myself so much...! Simply because...

I'm beautiful.

I'm beautiful.

I'm beautiful.

I'm beautiful.

I'm beautiful.

It's 9.26am and I haven't slept yet. What's written above is what I used to feel a long time ago. A LONG TIME AGO... And this is my first time writing something like this. Pardon the language. Perhaps with more practice, I can improve? Who knows? :~) Good night peeps.

counting the days...

Thanx for making this temporary stay in Malaysia a wonderful one. Thank you... Will be updating this blog ASAP... When I'm back in Australia... Gosh, I'll miss everyone...

I'm sorry dear readers for not updating it sooner. Been quite some time since my last post ey? Whatever it is, I'm gonna make full use of the next ten days I'm here... Yes, ONLY TEN days left :'~((( Flying to Aussie on the 24th... Haih. Hoping that this year will be a lot better than before....

With love, from the National Museum, Malaysia.

Oh oh! and... And I have a Twitter account oredy! Weee~! :~) Clap clap! Clap clap! (Jumping excitedly up and down, up and down like a retard.)

Ilyana Fauzy's Twitter
P/S: My twitter suddenly buat hal. Ada orang-orang yang saya pernah follow, tiba-tiba menghilang dari "Following" column tu. Maaf ye :~(


Btw, this blog is a mess at the moment. Will repair it within this month. (or next month). Sorry. Will be kinda busy since Macuqarie University reopens on the 20th.