busy week this way come...

3rd August 2009, New Semester, for the 2009/10 session, which means another busy time for me, and its about 15 weeks this semester, hmmm?!!!

Need to recharge

Still not enough time to blog, that is really a bad thing, coz one i really need of a vacation or day off, i mean a few days is all i need, need to pamper myself with INDULGENCE... favorite past time is completely out, the usual sleep till noon, self proclaimed couch potato and most of all enjoying eating without any time limits.

After more than a year working, really felt the pressure now, no more "o you did a really perfect job" or "bagus, nda payah d check, we positively sure you did it perfectly", now there's mistakes and forgetfulness is like a friend to me, I realized that i need to recharge.

Chosen to do the hard works? maybe or definitely but what criteria they observed me by...Honoured mestilah, new guy which all my work suppose to be given to the seniors but they chose me....

But there's a catch, being observed the whole time by the seniors which always complaint about everything, i mean i know there are just guiding us but we are just human prone to some mistakes once in a while Right?..eh mcm marah, but what could i say human should be complaining anyway.

Till now, i'm off. how many time i've to blog but still just empty words...hahahha

BAD and GUILTY!!

Something bad had just happened yesterday, i couldnt disclose anything about what is it, it just i must get it out of my chest, i did tried out talking to my friends but you know still have that guilty feeling bukled up inside you that made you feeling really really down! i hate that feelings it would take weeks or maybe months to get rid of it!! I HATE MYSELF!

We all know that sincerity is the best policy in life but must it be used all the time, okay i noticed something yesterday and if i just kept my mouth shut, really2 shut, all of this wouldn't happened and all the happy things that would just go on...

NOW, left will a guilt conscience and a really filthy feeling inside me, deep inside me and omg i'm just WRONG, so WRONG!!

What am i going to do now??..for the first time i'm blank and NO SOLUTION to all this, it's up to the Power That Be (that is what i'm going to call) who has and will have be all the authority of ME, little me!!

I HATE THIS FEELING, HOPE IT WILL DISSAPEAR AND EVRYTHING WILL BE FINE!!!