Head up in the Clouds

 I stay up all night, tell myself I'm alright

How do I love, how do I love again?

How do I trust, how do I trust again?

End of Oct 2026

The last...

 The last message..

seen 2 weeks ago... 

I'm not moving on...

I'm not letting you go...

I stopped texting, not because I stopped caring

But because i got tired of hurting...

If you text me, I'll reply...

I still check my phone every morning, hoping it's you...

But you are still my last thought before i sleep..

What was you doing?.. 

I miss you quietly, every single time... 

11/10/2026

Maybe I'm 'the problem'

Maybe we needed to lose each other for a while, 

maybe we needed to walk separate path, heal our wounds

not because the love wasn't real, 

but because we still had growing to do.

And maybe, if fate brings us back together someday,

we'd know how to love each other better.

Maybe the love wasn't wrong

Maybe the timing was..

13198 hours

Memories We Built with Love

 I still wish we could grow with 0505

The pain feels heavy because deep inside, I still wish I could hold your hand side by side and keep walking through life with you.

I stopped crying and started pretending everything was okay.

I smile, I laugh, and I act like I’m fine.

But deep inside, I’m still hurting in ways no one can see.

Sometimes the hardest pain is the one we hide behind a smile.

I will always treasure the little moments we created, because one day we may look back and realise those simple moments were some of our best memories.

Maybe our story stopped for now, but my heart is still open to heal and waiting.

If we turn back again, ever gives us a second chance,

I hope we meet again, stronger, wiser, and ready to love each other better.

Some memories are too beautiful to forget, and some people are too important to stop hoping for.

 ~ 21 Sept 2026 ~

Never Let Go

Happiness in our life is to live our life without living up to people's expectations.

Be there for a friend whenever, wherever and whatever the circumstances.

Your effort will be wasted if you put it into someone who doesn't cares about you.

No matter who you are, you deserve to be loved.

An apology will be meaningful when you mean it from your heart, not when you say it to make yourself feel better.

The valuable people in our lives are those who can make us smile on our weakest days.

Sometimes, we just wait for the right moment and place to know our own hearts.

Although actions speak louder than words, hearing the words from you is another way to confirm your feelings for me.

We can cry and be strong at the same time. Tears are not a sign of weakness.

A frightening obstacle is not an enemy in front of us. it's our own fear that stops us from facing it.

Nothing is too scary if you have someone who is willing to fight with you.

Sometimes, in a relationship, time and space can help us realize what we really want.

~ b4zach ~

29 April 2023

Myths on Feeling

...

Crying alone

Confused and lonely inside

Standing in the crowd

But I can’t shake the emptiness inside

I feel so lost

I let time and nights pass me by

Love had no meaning

Feeling is the cause

Rejection is #pain, 

but the most painful is losing you in unfair value when adjustment takes time to process. 

6 Jan 2023

Be My Love

 Even when you didn't know me

I used to pray. Always touching me with your gaze

The more I try to get to you, its getting further

I don't know how you feel

You know all about it, is it unfamiliar ?

That's how you look, I like everything about it

I can feel it when I miss you. Being next to you when it's hard

I want to be a valuable part to you 

You are the person who changed me. You're too much to me

If you're my part, that's so wonderful 

You know everything, but you pretend 

and try to avoid. That's how you look 

You're so pretty in my eyes

Feb 2021

Worst Chapter 2019

Dear Zach, 

I saw you crying 

See you being discouraged

I see you don't dare to sleep 

The world takes everything you have 

Leave the failure to accompany 

But reject your rejection 

Exploring the night eager but afraid of the light 

You lost your way, let me take you there 

You were never loved 

~ Sad Memory 2019 ~