Enjoying the summer....NOT

And yes, my fears were finally confirmed. After about a month of taking on the unbearable mission of MCATing and working, I came to the conclusion that I am basically stupid. I was foolish enough to that I can manage such a heavy load after a tough second semester of second year at university. MCAT for those not familiar with the word, stands for Medical College Admission Test. Yes, I want to go to medical school and now that's the admission test for it. I am preparing for it by going to class 4 nights a week. If that's not enough, I am currently doing research for 40 hours a week. I think my ego made me undergo this endeavour. It has been nearly 2 months in research and one month of MCAT, that's the midpoint of the summer. I am already exhausted,tired and despirited.

Being too proud and relishing to reach greater heights can be detrimental to one's life. I am not enjoying what I am doing at the moment. I just think that I need a break out of all of this. Why do not I like to give myself a break? Why do I want to be challenged every single time I do a thing? Why can't I take the easy route for once? My simple answer is because I am just stupid with a big ego.

It has been truly a summer from hell.